Monday, May 11, 2009

BAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

Sam,

I just read your exam today; otherwise, I wouldn't have included you in the e-mail about the final essay. I can only infer from your story that you had rather a rough year, and I'm sorry that your experience at Carleton has left you hoping for a Coyote intervention. Hopefully, you can find an outlet for your creative talent that is more rewarding. (And, yes, I am being sincere.)

I know the format of the course didn't really allow us to get to know each other--although I did get all of the references to your classmates. (If I hadn't had such a heavy teaching load, I would have sat in on some of the tutorials; it just wasn't possible.) So, for what it's worth, I'm more likely to be punchy from sleep deprivation than high on caffeine, and I'm not very fond of shouting or doughnuts. I am, however, always happy to read another Coyote story.

Take care,

S. Birkwood

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Sunday Slacking

I love just sitting on my couch watching movies in my pjs. Makes me feel so comfortable. I like watching classic type movies. Like A Walk To Remember which is more of a girly classic movie, and Romeo + Juliet, which is just so good. Soon I'll be watching some Audry Hepburn, Starting with Roman Holiday, then Sabrina, and then Breakfast at Tiffany's. Exciting :)

I think I should do this every Sunday.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

It’s amazing how the one person you would do anything for would never ask you to
You leave me speechless
Breathless
And without a clue
It’s all because of you
It’s when you walk though the door
And just start to smile
It’s when you look into my eyes
And I can’t think
It’s when you kiss me
And I can’t breathe
It’s when you play guitar
And I just melt
It’s when you leave
And I fall apart
That’s when it hits me
And I can’t take it anymore
Cause I can’t live without you
It’s when you text me
And I feel like screaming
It’s the rose you gave me
That sits by my bed
And gives me hope
To get me through the next day without you
It’s the way you inspire me
And I can’t get you out of me head
It’s when I can’t sleep
And picture your face
Cause I can’t live without you
It’s the way you drive me crazy
And I fall for you

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

3 Things That Happen When You're Happy

There are three things that happen when you're happy. You start to feel all mushy, you can't think straight, and then you start to smile. Soon you won't be able to stop. And life just feels like there is nothing that can go wrong. It's drawing little hearts all over your papers. You're high on this happy little cloud and there is nothing that can bring you down. Hold on to it. Don't let it go. Cause some things just don't last forever.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

"I'm here because of you. You're my priority. Your happiness, in some fucked way, is tuned in to mine. Get that through your thick skull. Would I like it any other way? Hell, yes, but I don't think that will be happening in my lifetime."
- Jonah Griggs, On The Jellicoe Road

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Over-Thinking is a problem

Everything was great until I started thinking.

UGGGGGH I'm just not happy.

There's this guy I've liked for about a year. And I work with him. (yeah yeah I know). He's about 6 years older then me, but it really doesn't feel like that big of a deal. And for most of the time I have known him, he has had a girlfriend. He recently broke up with her and now we're sort of going out.

And I was very very happy.

Until my mom started talking.

She said stuff about how he just broke up with his girlfriend, and therefore I should be careful.

UGH

damn!!

And now I'm just over thinking it. And it's just going on and on. It's just not good.

I wish I could stop thinking. It would be so much better if my brain would just stop and let me be happy for once. Damnit.

Why can't I ever let myself just be happy without finding some reason that I can't???

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I like to figure out who I am I guess

TEN random things about me

1. I am very much in love with rain and thunderstorms.

2. I have a hopeless addiction to things with caffeine - Coffee, tea, and coke are the main three.

3. My biggest fears (that are tangible) are insane asylums and the people in them (including the doctors), needles, and fish (I have no idea how that started but it's pretty bad).

4. I tend to like music if I can relate it to my life somehow. Pretty much all my favorite songs (Of which there are over 200) can be somehow related to some part of my life. I can truely describe everything I have ever felt through songs. Music helps me get through the tough times in my life, and they can change some aspect of it, just by giving me a new perspective.

5. I spend my days daydreaming about every single thing. Someone could say one thing, and I'll think about it for long time, trying to imagine the different possibilities of what they said.

6. I have some bad nightmares, but they don't really make sense, and they connect to some of the things I day dream about, which is really weird cause they feel very very real to me.

7. I am a very quiet person, and while I can be loud and outgoing at some times, I usually perfer to be in my room listening to music and not saying anything at all. I also hate being around people I don't know, which is why, when I go to a party, I tend to only talk to the people that I do know.

8. I never truly get over the people that I had a serious crush on. Ever since grade 8. There will always be a part of me that will like them, though I am mostly friends with them now.

9. My mind never shuts up, which means it takes me about two hours to get to sleep because that is how long it will take for my mind to just relax.

10. I only feel alone when I'm around lots of people, and then when I am actually alone, I feel perfectly fine.

NINE ways to win my heart

1. Play guitar. I have a weakness for it.

2. Don't be someone different when we're out with friends and when we are alone. Be yourself at all times, or will more than likely just get annoyed with the change.

3. DO NOT CALL ME SHORT!!!! I already know that I am short. I have been short my whole life.. It's like telling someone that they are black. They already know it, so why do you have to tell them???

4. Visit me at work, even if it's just for two seconds..

5. Accept that I get uncomfortable when you call me pretty, or anything like that. Cute is okay. Anything more makes me feel awkward.

6. Introduce me to the kind of music that you like. Chances are I will like it too. And listen or at least accept what I listen to. I know some of it is really random, but I like it.

7. Take picture of me with you, let me take pictures of you, take random funny videos of us together. Anything that I can look at later and say, that was a good day.

8. Making me laugh is always a good way to make me want to hang out with you more. I love laughing.

9. You don't have to be constantly talking. Sometimes more can be said with silence than with a million words.

EIGHT ways to annoy me

1. Calling me short. Already explained lol.

2. Tlkin lke dis. Using u instead of you. l8r instead of later. It's just so annoying.

3. Constant need to fill every second with useless chatter.

4. Blaming me for something that is not my fault (mostly at work. Like I have control over the taxes! Fuck off people! I'm just a cashier!)

5. Girls who think that being a dumbass is the way to get guys to like you, and act all ditzy around guys.

6. Yes, some internet videos are funny the first time. playing them over and over again is just annoying. And there are some that are actually just stupid and not funny at all.

7. Being left out of things that all my friends are doing. Like not being invited somewhere or anything of that sort.

8. When text messages go unanswered. You could at least say something. Don't care if it's just one word.

SEVEN things I want to do before I die

1. See these bands/singers: AFI, All Time Low (Yay seeing them soon!), Our Innocence Lost, and Taylor Swift.

2. Return to England, and stay there for at least 3 months. Basically, move there, even if it's just for a short time.

3. Go to Australia.

4, Fall in love and get married.

5. Finish a book/story.

6. Learn to play the guitar.

7. Visit Japan.

SIX things I need

1. Friends

2. Music

3. Dreams

4. Love

5. Colour

6. Rain

FIVE things I'm scared of

1. Insane Asylums

2. The people in the above (doctors included)

3. Needles

4. Fish

5. Mirrors at night/in the dark, when they are covered by something during the day.

FOUR favorite things in my room

1. iPod

2. Computer

3. Books

4. Bed

THREE things I do everyday

1. Listen to music

2. Text someone

3. Wash my face

TWO things I'll always cherish

1. My ideas and ideals in my head

2. My friends that I know I will always have.

ONE confession I must make

I have a lot of secrets, and no, I won`t tell you. Some people do know some, but I would rather keep them to myself, at least for now.