I miss that good ol 90s teen bop music

You know, that stuff like old school Britney Spears, the Backstreet boys, N*Sync, and Mandy Moore. The stuff I grew up on. Damn that shit was good. Which is why yesterday I managed to download some old Britney Spears, a little Backstreet Boys, and I got some Bowling For Soup too. Oh and Busted. And 3 Doors Down. Of course, this led to a small download chain where I moved from Backstreet and Britney to Brand New and Bayside because Travis wanted me to listen to them, and then somehow I wanted to listen to Aiden, then Muse, then Linkin Park, Korn, Marilyn Manson, Jimmy Eat World, Hilary Duff, and the Pussycat Dolls. Because somehow those are all linked somehow in my very strange mind. Anyways, I should actually start working on my essay again.

Today has been a great day. First, I started on my English essay, got a few quotes and my points all organized, ready to start, and then I couldn’t think of anything. So I decided I would start organizing my film notes for the exam coming up so I started that, and of course all my notes are on my laptop. Which crashed about 3 times today. Which was awesome. So I almost lost all my notes for all my classes and all my work. I managed to save them onto a USB before losing them all so now I’m on my desktop, which is really slow and the MSN tends to fuck up often which is annoying as fuck. And since I moved up here and took a break for food the will to do any form of work has vanished. I should probably just somehow force myself to work but I don’t know how well that will work out for me…

THat chicken was really nasty….And now I don’t feel so great. Gotta love today.

I think I'm going to start crying very soon.

I've fucked my life up in so many ways during the past few days.

I'm sorry. Please don't leave me like this.

Tell you like me again.

I miss you.

I miss your smile.

I miss your voice on the phone late at night when I'm half asleep but I don't want to hang up the phone.

I miss your morning text messages.

I miss your hugs.

I miss your smell.

I miss your hands in mine.

I miss waiting for the bus to come by your house and the quick goodbye kiss before I leave.

I miss sitting at the park in the cold, hearing stories of your friends.

<3

Why can i not do anything at my house? And why is that you want me to live like you did when your life sucked. You had no friends when you were my age.You only did homework and had no life. You ended up with only one friend and now all your friends are through someone else. Sorry I turn out to be a preppy happy ass cheerleader, or a loner like you, or a nerd like Nick. Sorry I turned out to be someone who likes to have friends, doesn't think homework is the center of the world, and I would actually like to hang with my friends instead of with my family. Sorry I didn't turn out like you wanted me to. Sorry I'm not exactly like you. Can't you please just leave me alone to live my own life? I'm 18. And I plan on moving out as soon as I possibly can. I need as much space away from you as I can get. Oh and I don't give a damn about how much in debt I'll be. i only stayed here for dad. I could really care less about the debt issue cause I just want to be away from you.