I miss that good ol 90s teen bop music

You know, that stuff like old school Britney Spears, the Backstreet boys, N*Sync, and Mandy Moore. The stuff I grew up on. Damn that shit was good. Which is why yesterday I managed to download some old Britney Spears, a little Backstreet Boys, and I got some Bowling For Soup too. Oh and Busted. And 3 Doors Down. Of course, this led to a small download chain where I moved from Backstreet and Britney to Brand New and Bayside because Travis wanted me to listen to them, and then somehow I wanted to listen to Aiden, then Muse, then Linkin Park, Korn, Marilyn Manson, Jimmy Eat World, Hilary Duff, and the Pussycat Dolls. Because somehow those are all linked somehow in my very strange mind. Anyways, I should actually start working on my essay again.

Today has been a great day. First, I started on my English essay, got a few quotes and my points all organized, ready to start, and then I couldn’t think of anything. So I decided I would start organizing my film notes for the exam coming up so I started that, and of course all my notes are on my laptop. Which crashed about 3 times today. Which was awesome. So I almost lost all my notes for all my classes and all my work. I managed to save them onto a USB before losing them all so now I’m on my desktop, which is really slow and the MSN tends to fuck up often which is annoying as fuck. And since I moved up here and took a break for food the will to do any form of work has vanished. I should probably just somehow force myself to work but I don’t know how well that will work out for me…

THat chicken was really nasty….And now I don’t feel so great. Gotta love today.

I think I'm going to start crying very soon.

I've fucked my life up in so many ways during the past few days.

I'm sorry. Please don't leave me like this.

Tell you like me again.

I miss you.

I miss your smile.

I miss your voice on the phone late at night when I'm half asleep but I don't want to hang up the phone.

I miss your morning text messages.

I miss your hugs.

I miss your smell.

I miss your hands in mine.

I miss waiting for the bus to come by your house and the quick goodbye kiss before I leave.

I miss sitting at the park in the cold, hearing stories of your friends.

<3

Why can i not do anything at my house? And why is that you want me to live like you did when your life sucked. You had no friends when you were my age.You only did homework and had no life. You ended up with only one friend and now all your friends are through someone else. Sorry I turn out to be a preppy happy ass cheerleader, or a loner like you, or a nerd like Nick. Sorry I turned out to be someone who likes to have friends, doesn't think homework is the center of the world, and I would actually like to hang with my friends instead of with my family. Sorry I didn't turn out like you wanted me to. Sorry I'm not exactly like you. Can't you please just leave me alone to live my own life? I'm 18. And I plan on moving out as soon as I possibly can. I need as much space away from you as I can get. Oh and I don't give a damn about how much in debt I'll be. i only stayed here for dad. I could really care less about the debt issue cause I just want to be away from you.

I hate boys. Seriously.

What is wrong with them??? Yeah, I've got some boy drama coming your way.

First, why is that the guys you don't like hang around and never get a hint? Okay, you've asked me out so many times and each time I say that I'm busy or something of that sort, and yet you still ask! Get a hint and stop! I even like blatantly ditched him today for another guy (Yeah more about THAT crap later) and yet he's still like, oh yeah it's okay we'll chill later... I'm like, uh yeah not gunna happen. Like ever.

Second, why do they flirt with you one week, and like almost ask you out, and then go away for a weekend and then come back and not talk to you for a whole freaking three hours, then chill with you for an hour, and then go back to ignoring you?? What is that? Seriously, I really like this guy, and last week was so great, we were really going somewhere, and then he went home for the weekend and comes back and doesn't seem to be into me anymore! Did I do something wrong? Seriously what the hell? I'm not too happy with this arrangement going on here. Maybe it will be different tomorrow. Oh god I hope it's different tomorrow. But like better different. Not worse different.

Damn guys. I just can't figure them out.

Waiting for two hours in between classes is so incredibly boring. Even though I’ve been waiting for one hour already. Oh I meant to say waiting for three hours. Not two. But whatever it’s the same. It’s bring. I had food and now I’m sitting with Mike and some other girl whose name I forgot. Usually Todd and Matt S are here but I don’t know where they are currently. Mike’s taking a nap, the other girl is doing homework, and I’m on my laptop. But there are no plugs around which really sucks because I don’t want to run out of batteries during history. Though there is a plug close to where I sit in history so I’ll just jack that. And there is a soccer game on the tv way over there and I can’t see who is playing. Damn. Oh I have quotes to put in here... I haven’t put in any for a while. Okay the first one is me on the bus... to myself...
“I’m going to make a bus called the 95ZX, and it’s going to take me from my house to Carleton nonstop. It’ll be called the ZX because that sounds really cool. And it’ll be pronounced in the proper way, not the American way, because then it would sound like SX and that just doesn’t sound as cool. Zed Ex sounds better. Like Fed Ex only faster... And Cooler. It will pick up all my friends, and once we’re at school, it will become a 95X Baseline because that thing is a tank. And my bus will be a tank. It will even have a Cow Catcher on the front and run over any cars that get in its way. And it will be the cars fault cause it got in the way.” - Sam
And the next one is... me talking to Mel yesterday about our history reading responses. Good times there.
“I CAN’T FIND THE FREAKING BIASES!! BAH!!! ... I’m making them up.” - Sam
“I'm just making all my points into a paragraphical form and such prettiness.” – Sam
Yup. I be crazy. I think that’s it for now. For quotes anyway. I’ll keep writing. Mostly because I’m bored and the only thing else I could be doing now would be Latin homework and I’m so lost in that class it’s not even funny. Like, I don’t understand all the different cases at all. There are way to many of them and they’re pretty much all the same. It’s bull. It would make more sense if I had a better teacher. This one just doesn’t teach every well. I think he should just focus on the vocabulary first, then all the forms and grammar stuff once we know what the words mean because that would be so much easier.
So I had that class this morning. It’s always so cold in that class too. Gah. And now I’m waiting for history class to start. There’s like an hour and a half until it starts. So boring. And after I have an hour between the lecture and my tutorial. But at least during that hour I get to see J, so maybe we’ll hang out again like we did last week. That would be awesome. Seem last week, we went exploring. We wondered around campus getting lost and looking in restricted areas that you needed a pass card for (the door was open!). We also tried to find some lab coats that we could steal. There were none which sucked. We wanted to have cool lab coats. But whatever. It was fun. And then during the tutorial we didn’t really pay attention and went on facebook and such. It was quite fun I guess.
I want to take a nap when I get home. The only problem is I’m going to be getting home at 8, so that kinda ruins it. Especially because I have to do some Philosophy readings and then a response. There is a film review I should be doing but I didn’t see the film and I don’t really care that much, so it’s just not going to get done. Too bad. I am sad. And after my tutorial i get to wait half an hour for Cass to be done her class so we can bus home together. The reason I wait is because by the time she’s done, rush hour is like over so it’s not as busy on the bus and we can more than likely get a seat. Which is nice on a half hour long bus ride.
Okay, I think I’m done now. I should probably read Frankenstein, considering I need to have it finished by Monday and I’m only half way done. Bye! I might write more in History depending on how boring the class is lol.

Hello. Or really, good morning. Just felt like writing a new blog. Really random, I know. But yeah.

So this week has been pretty crazy. Well, so have the past few weeks. Mostly because of school. it's a busy place. Lots of reading, lots of homework. Made some friends which is good. Found a few cute guys that happen to be really cool. Like M. He's funny and really easy to hang around with which is good. And there's J. He makes me laugh a lot. Can't help but smile when he's around. Only problem is he has a gf. Which just kinda sucks. Every time I find someone who makes me smile and laugh and feel good, theyt have a gf. Really sucks.

So there are my guy complaints. Oh wait, I have one more. Why are there no hot emo boys in Ottawa? Seriously? How hard is it for them to go to Carleton? I want to see some around, but there are none anywhere! I like them emo boys in their tight pants and their long hair. But noooo can't have any in Ottawa. Can't have any going to Carleton. Blows. Just blows.

But other than that, life's been pretty good.. Nothing terribly intersting happening really. I'm currently at Katies. We had a little girl's night. Watched Sex and the City (Movie) and then Maid of Honor, which was quite funny. She's gone upstairs to sleep and I'm downstairs on my laptop, watching Supernatural. Yes, I did find the new episode, so I can talk to you about it Laura! Once you like wake up and come online. I probably won't even be able to sleep anyway so I'll just do whatever until morning. Probably would have been better to stay home and sleep in my own bed, but it was fun. I met Katie's brother. Kinda hot. Yup. But like old. so yeah.

Anyways, I think that's all I've got for now.If I have mor eto say I'll write it later! Bye for now.

This is for you Laura!!

It's been so long since I last wrote one of these! I don't even remember the last post... I should probably read that over lol. But whatever.

I haven;t really been doing much so there's not much to say. I've been working. And when I'm not working I've been watching Bleach or reading the Manga. Thank you Adam for getting me addicted to that show... He also told me to watch Death Note and some other thing with a weird title that I don't remember lol.

So today I worked. A lot. From 12:30 to 9:15. So I'm a little worn out lol. But it's cool cause I'm talking with Laura who's in North Bay visiting Arijana with Amanda (Random shout outs there). So yeah.

And then next week is Paramore, then Ireland dinner, then Laura moves! BAh, not excited for that last one. Imma miss you Laura. But that's what webcams are for! You'll have to take pics of your dorm and show me where you live!!

I think that's all I've got for now! Maybe I'll write more when I get home tomorrow which is at around like 2. So yeah! Bye bye!

Hello. I haven't blogged in a few days. So here's what's been happening the past few days.

I drove to Montreal on Thursday. When we were there, we had lunch at the Hard Rock Cafe. Afterwards, we went shopping. I get a shirt and a dress type thing that works more like a trench coat from Urban Outfitters. There was a really cute emo guy at the cash. Yay. And then I stopped in Quicksilver, and there was this guy who worked there that looked kinds like Ryan Sheckler. And of course all the other guys that worked there were hot as well. :D I bought to tee shirts from this little store called Bang On. One of them is the same one that Mikey Way has. Which I thought was pretty cool. And we stopped in Foot Locker and I found these really nice Converse shoes with a pretty design on them, but I wasn't allowed to get them... :( But I will get them here since there are Foot Lockers in Ottawa. So I will get them! :D

I watched Camp Rock with Cass on Wednesday. Laura couldn't come but Tina did. So we watched it. And it was awesome. I love that movie.

I worked yesterday, and it was boring. During one of my breaks I went to Wal Mart to visit Cass. We went to the back because she was going to go on break. And at the back, I saw "Alex" as I call him. He apparently works there. I pretty much freaked out. It was the first time I had seen him in quite some time...

And that's all I've got for now! Laters!

Gah I can't sleep. But at least dad canceled my driving to Montreal tomorrow, so I don't have anywhere to go until evening when I'm going to watch Camp Rock with Cass and Laura.

So onto my day. Not too much happened. I finished watching all of Charmed. I've started on Supernatural. I'm on the third episode. So yeah.. After I finish Supernatural I'll watch Heroes. Yup.

I had to work today too. It was pretty boring. I had to remove this sticky stuff from something, I'm not sure what it was. But it took practically all shift, and my arm is basically dead now. I was using a screwdriver to remove it, and it took so long. Then Kat got me this sticky stuff remover and it helped a little. Not much but whatever.

And then I came home, showered, and tried to sleep cause I was tried. It worked for about half an hour and then I just couldn't take it anymore so I got up and turned on my computer. Now I'll just try to tire myself out so I might be able to sleep eventually.

Love ya!

Today was a good day. I did stuff at least. Which is more than every other day lol.

I texted Aleks all day. And it was fun. She was at summer school and very bored. Then Nick wanted a new monitor so I had to go so he could get the employee discount. Then I had to drop him off at a friends. Then I came home.

I read a bit until dinner, then after diner I started talking to Kyle on that facebook chat thing. I'll paste the conversation even though it's not all of it because facebook is stupid and won't save all of it. Just to clarify, we were talking about the noise that it makes when you get a new message. It makes a popping sound, like bubble wrap and we liked it so we kept saying pop... we're silly people...

Kyle:
Pop
pop
POP!
:)
ok i'm god
...good...
Samantha:
I was going to say "YOU'RE GOD! OH MY!"
Kyle:
Well just don't tell anyone
:)
Samantha:
I won't!
:)
Kyle:
:)
:):)
oh no
:)
:) :)
Samantha:
lol it hates you
Kyle:
:(
:(
Samantha:
ha ha
pop
:)
:) :)
:0
damn
:o
Yeah!
lol random
Kyle:
:(
:( :(
:( :( :(
:( :( :( :(
:( :( :(
:( :(
:(
YES!
Samantha:
oh snap
Kyle:
damn...they're sad
:)
oops
Samantha:
well done
Kyle:
:O
:O
:O :O
:O :O :O
:O :O :O :O :O :O :O :O
:O :O :O
Samantha:
it’s deformed
Kyle:
NO!!!! MY TRIANGLE
lol
Samantha:
ha ha
Kyle:
:S
hm
:s
Samantha:
Awwww <3>
Kyle:
hmmm
<3>
YAH!
...hm
Samantha:
yay <3>
Kyle:
<3>
Samantha:
why you trying to break my heart!!!
Kyle:
hehe
<-3
...I don't know how!
Samantha:
How to do what?
Kyle:
break a heart
Samantha:
lol you rip it out then smash it! leterally
lol i can't spell
Kyle:
it's ok
I can't weieog tiwethewr
eitherasas/.s-s
Samantha:
lol wow you're worse than me!~
~~~~~
hee hee
Kyle:
sesmned that flkauwway
Samantha:
k you can stop now
Kyle:
okppop
Samantha:
:P
Kyle:
ok...poop
:P
() ()
oops...
Samantha:
fuck soccer people
Kyle:
( .) (. )
Samantha:
they're taking up ma road!
Kyle:
soccer people
oh lol
() ()
( . .)
3(")(")
Samantha:
yeah... damn them
lol bunny
Kyle:
bunny!
Samantha:
he is made of awesome
Kyle:
lmao
yes he is
Samantha:
I'm bored.... :(
Kyle:
:( let's do something!
Samantha:
yes, let's!
Kyle:
letwsedfaoji
oodpsaosdpssoops
Samantha:
... what?
Kyle:
what
WHEE!
Samantha:
I'm confuzzled
Kyle:
are u sure?
Samantha:
.. no?
Kyle:
well then how do you know?
Samantha:
I don't!
Kyle:
really?
Samantha:
really
Kyle:
confused?
Samantha:
no... confuzzled
Kyle:
paper airplanes!
Samantha:
WHERE!!!
Kyle:
well you missed them now
Samantha:
Damn...
Kyle:
you gotta look fast!
next time don't worry
Samantha:
I guess I'm not fast enough
omg I want to do something! GAH
Kyle:
ARGH! me too :)
lol hag
Samantha:
lol silly
Kyle:
gah
hag
Samantha:
lol only you...
Kyle:
just me?
Samantha:
Yes, just you
Kyle:
oh...I'm I alone or special
am I*
Samantha:
Special in that short bus kind of way
Kyle:
...:( no...no...:(
Samantha:
It's okay because I sit beside you!
:D
Kyle:
shit...I mean...yay?
:D
Samantha:
Ouch
Kyle:
I was gonna warn you about that fly
Samantha:
you wound me sir!
Kyle:
NO
Samantha:
fly?
Kyle:
the fly did!
Samantha:
what's going on!!
Kyle:
it bit you
you said ouch
Samantha:
lol who said a fly bit me? Maybe it was a vampire!
Kyle:
no it was a fly I seen it!
but...maybe it had VAMPIRE BLOOD!
Samantha:
Maybe! lol
Kyle:
ok let's do somehting
...something...
Samantha:
yes... meet me at the park now?
Kyle:
ohh :)
I like where this is going :)
Samantha:
lol then go! Now! Run!
Kyle:
I can't run...me broke my legs...I can hop!
Samantha:
then hop away my good sir!
Kyle:
like a frog
ok!
Samantha:
indeed lol
see you soon then!
bye!
Kyle:
bye
:)

Yeah so that was our conversation. We're strange lol. So yeah. Then we went to the park, talked for a bit, then Laura came, and we hung out with her, and went to the quickie. We talked to James who works at the little pizza place for a bit. Then Laura had to leave so Kyle and I went back to the park. We sat on the swings before going to my house to watch Fruits Basket. It was fun, just like in grade 10 when we filmed a scene from it. It was random and funny. Then Amanda came over and watched it with us. And talked about work and her trip and such. then they left. Ta da! That was day. It was pretty good actually. :D

Bye loves!

So time to somewhat explain that last post. Sort of... anyway


Honestly, who would someone pretend to be your good friend for THREE years and then practically ignore you later? To talk to you like you're just an acquaintance. Someone you don't really talk to.

And to be so "tight" with someone whom everyone always seems to like so much more than me. The only people who don't like her more than me are the people from my work, but that's because they don't know her.

I'm not mad at her. I just don't get it. She's quiet and doesn't seem like the kind of person who everyone wants to be friends with. I'm not saying she's not a good friend because she is but stil.. I try to be funny, nice, outgoing, and not crazy quiet. But still, it's all like, "[She should] hang out with me!", "Do this with us" and never Sam, hang out with us, let's do something. It's bullshit. I feel so pushed aside to make room for her. It's not fair. I hate it. I hate feeling so alone. And I hate that I couldn't be myself around any of them.

The only one I can be myself around is someone from work. It's strange, but I don't know.

Damn this funky mood I'm in. It's driving me crazy.

Seriously, am I invisible? Does anyone really think long enough to care? Am I really a friend to you? Or is is just me who thinks that way? I don't understand why I tried so hard to be there for you, to listen, to INVITE you anywhere when you really don't seem to care about my feelings. You all take me for granted, but I don't care anymore. I don't consider you my friend anymore. You've crossed the line on too many times and it's done. You created this mess, and I'm done. Go on, go to your other friends, care about them, miss them, but don't miss me. I don't care anymore. It's over. Have a nice freaking life.

Good bye.

I don't feel like going to bed yet, so I'm going to watch Hairspray instead! Yay!

Today hasn't been particularly interesting. Didn't much, as always. I went to Boston Pizza for dinner. I had ribs. But it was pretty boring. After I went to visit Cass at Wal Mart. She wanted to know all about yesterday with Adam and Matt lol. Then Tina came and so I talked to her a little as well. Then I had to go home, so I watched videos of All Time Low. Yay. They're funny. One of the best ones is Jack's Boner Song:
Little man on the corner
Something poking it's his boner
But he don't got a big one
Because his name is Alex Gaskarth

lol such a random song. He made it up on the spot. Same with his "My dick tastes like applesauce, applesauce, applesauce" lol it's always fun watching All Time Low videos.

So yeah, now I'm watching Hairspray. I haven't watched it in so long, my god!

"What is that, the wavin ravin? It's a little twicthy!"

Anyways, I'll go back to watching that, very quietly so it doesn't wake anyone, and then go to bed later! Bye!

Whew. What a day.

I didn't do much until I had to go to work. And when I got there, I immediately knew Adam was having a bad day. :(. Jarlin and I got to make a paper display which ended up being as tall as both of us. But it was fun because we talked and it passed the time.

After work I hung out with Adam and Matt. We went to pub in Manitick where Adam had a beer, Matt had chicken, and I had coke. Beforehand we were at Wal Mart and I saw a poster from camp Rock of Joe Jonas and I was looking at it, then they were like... Weird... They didn't know who it was lol

After the pub, we went to Adam's house where Matt and Adam went searching for some form of drinkable alcohol. It was very hard because it was Adam's dad's house and everything they drank they had to replace. And everything was old and basically un-replaceable. After the great alcohol search, they went around trying to find some form of cable to hook up a computer to a projector. They found one eventually and Adam put on a pizza. We watched Bleach (wtf is with that show? So strange.. but then again I only saw episode 130ish and some other ones so yeah). So we watched that and ate pizza. After watching some episodes, they put on The Office, but we didn't get far because dad called and made me come home. I was supposed to go home at 12, which was when we were making the pizza lol. So I was an hour and half late, but I was allowed to stay at Adams, but my parents are stupid and were like, come home now!. Which sucks cause I'm 18, it's summer, and I have nothing planned for tomorrow. BAH! Alright. I'm done for now. It is 2 am now so maybe I should sleep lol. Even though sleep is usually hard for me come by. But whatever. Night! Or morning. Whatever! <3

"I don't know, she's out on cloud coo-coo land someplace."

I be back! Back from driving. Boo.

The drive to Kingston was a lot easier than the last time I drove on the highway. So it wasn't too too bad. But still. Gah, driving. We got to Kingston and went for lunch at the Lone Star. While we were there we met someone who we knew from the Dojo. It was strange that she recognized me, but it was interesting. After we walked around, trying to find the Wiccian store I had seen a while ago. But it's not there anymore. Kinda sad. I really wanted to go. But I'll find one in Ottawa somewhere. I shall look now. That's all I've got for today. Later peeps!

Sam: "I got really crazy and ran downstairs, jumped on the couch, and screamed, then ran back upstairs."
Adam: "I wish I was that couch."


Adam: "My boobs are hot! And they've been getting bigger since I started working out."
Sam: "Mine have been getting bigger and it's not because I've been working out."
...
Adam: "I probably should have asked you to show me."
Sam: "You missed your chance."


See? I can be funny sometimes! That was my day at work basically. It was fun. The whole "My boobs are hot" made me laugh so hard, mostly because he went up to the fan and pulled his shirt down(ish I guess.. I dunno), and let the fan blow onto his chest.. You had to be there lol

So yeah, that's what I've done today lol. I did nothing, then went to work and talked to Adam. And Mark, and Matt, and Sarah, and Steph.

During break, Mark and JP had gone to Wendy's and somehow got free food, so they had an extra burger that they were going to give to Steph, but they wanted to eat it instead, so they started to fight over it.. It was so funny. Then they ended up splitting it. And I stole fries. They were good. And Mark burnt his tongue on Steph's burger. Ah, good times, good times.

Oh, and to all my friends, Adam wants to meet you all lol. He said to just go over to his house. So yeah, just over and be like, I'm Sam's friend! HI! And then run away. Because then I would laugh. A lot. :D

I think that's all I've got to say today. Tomorrow I have to drive to Kingston. Grr. I don't wanna go!!!!!! :( I write about how annoyed I am at driving when I get back tomorrow. Bye loves!

Being invited everywhere, just randomly going over and hanging out, taking pictures together, talking constantly, and yet I'm sitting at home alone listening to music and doing nothing else.

Ah, my timetable is finally done for next year! I finally found an elective that actually fits in my timetable. And that would be latin. Yes, I am going to TRY and learn latin. I have feeling it may not go so well, but I will try! You never know, I might be good at it!! Probably not, but it sounds like it could be fun to learn... I guess. I don't know. But I'll try it.

So today was pretty boring. I went to work, untangled a massive amount of cables which were very dirty and turned my hands black. Lovely. I helped Batman find some sticky stuff. I also found out Adam is leaving at the end of August. That kinda sucks 'cause he's cool.

After work, I went to Sbucks with Cass. That was fun. I missed talking to her. In person, cause we text often. And once she's downloaded and burned Camp Rock to a DVD we're gunna watch it. That shall be fun. Mostly because I'm pretty much in love with that movie. Like, crazy. I want to watch it now... Hmmm.

And the rest of the day involves me doing basically nothing. Just chilling. Tomorrow I shall sleep in, and find something interstiong to do! Yay! Maybe Laura's not doing anything and we can hang or something.. I shall ask her... :D Love yas!



Ps: Who reads this? I know Laura does cause she comments an it (Love you!) But if anyone else does I want to know! You don't have to tell me, but it would be cool to know! Maybe I'll write shit about you.. Not, like, bad stuff, but like good stuff. And yeah.. Let me know! :D

So yesterday I was talking with Laura and looking up Twilight icons. I have so many, it's unbelievable. And I was like, aren't you excited for when the book comes out and I get all crazy hyper again?? She was like... I guess.... Meaning she totally won't want to talk to me because I'm too crazy hyper for her lol. But it's cool!

So yesterday I went to work. Boring. When I got home I watched Across The Universe. I like that movie... :D

And today I work, which I should probably be getting ready for, and then after work, I'm going to hang out with Cass. I haven't seen her since graduation. I haven't really seen anyone since then... Blah. But tonight I get to hang out with people! YAY! I'll write more later probably.