BAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

Sam,

I just read your exam today; otherwise, I wouldn't have included you in the e-mail about the final essay. I can only infer from your story that you had rather a rough year, and I'm sorry that your experience at Carleton has left you hoping for a Coyote intervention. Hopefully, you can find an outlet for your creative talent that is more rewarding. (And, yes, I am being sincere.)

I know the format of the course didn't really allow us to get to know each other--although I did get all of the references to your classmates. (If I hadn't had such a heavy teaching load, I would have sat in on some of the tutorials; it just wasn't possible.) So, for what it's worth, I'm more likely to be punchy from sleep deprivation than high on caffeine, and I'm not very fond of shouting or doughnuts. I am, however, always happy to read another Coyote story.

Take care,

S. Birkwood

Sunday Slacking

I love just sitting on my couch watching movies in my pjs. Makes me feel so comfortable. I like watching classic type movies. Like A Walk To Remember which is more of a girly classic movie, and Romeo + Juliet, which is just so good. Soon I'll be watching some Audry Hepburn, Starting with Roman Holiday, then Sabrina, and then Breakfast at Tiffany's. Exciting :)

I think I should do this every Sunday.

It’s amazing how the one person you would do anything for would never ask you to

You leave me speechless
Breathless
And without a clue
It’s all because of you

It’s when you walk though the door
And just start to smile
It’s when you look into my eyes
And I can’t think
It’s when you kiss me
And I can’t breathe
It’s when you play guitar
And I just melt
It’s when you leave
And I fall apart
That’s when it hits me
And I can’t take it anymore
Cause I can’t live without you
It’s when you text me
And I feel like screaming
It’s the rose you gave me
That sits by my bed
And gives me hope
To get me through the next day without you
It’s the way you inspire me
And I can’t get you out of me head
It’s when I can’t sleep
And picture your face
Cause I can’t live without you
It’s the way you drive me crazy
And I fall for you

3 Things That Happen When You're Happy

There are three things that happen when you're happy. You start to feel all mushy, you can't think straight, and then you start to smile. Soon you won't be able to stop. And life just feels like there is nothing that can go wrong. It's drawing little hearts all over your papers. You're high on this happy little cloud and there is nothing that can bring you down. Hold on to it. Don't let it go. Cause some things just don't last forever.

"I'm here because of you. You're my priority. Your happiness, in some fucked way, is tuned in to mine. Get that through your thick skull. Would I like it any other way? Hell, yes, but I don't think that will be happening in my lifetime."
- Jonah Griggs, On The Jellicoe Road

Over-Thinking is a problem

Everything was great until I started thinking.

UGGGGGH I'm just not happy.

There's this guy I've liked for about a year. And I work with him. (yeah yeah I know). He's about 6 years older then me, but it really doesn't feel like that big of a deal. And for most of the time I have known him, he has had a girlfriend. He recently broke up with her and now we're sort of going out.

And I was very very happy.

Until my mom started talking.

She said stuff about how he just broke up with his girlfriend, and therefore I should be careful.

UGH

damn!!

And now I'm just over thinking it. And it's just going on and on. It's just not good.

I wish I could stop thinking. It would be so much better if my brain would just stop and let me be happy for once. Damnit.

Why can't I ever let myself just be happy without finding some reason that I can't???

I like to figure out who I am I guess

TEN random things about me

1. I am very much in love with rain and thunderstorms.

2. I have a hopeless addiction to things with caffeine - Coffee, tea, and coke are the main three.

3. My biggest fears (that are tangible) are insane asylums and the people in them (including the doctors), needles, and fish (I have no idea how that started but it's pretty bad).

4. I tend to like music if I can relate it to my life somehow. Pretty much all my favorite songs (Of which there are over 200) can be somehow related to some part of my life. I can truely describe everything I have ever felt through songs. Music helps me get through the tough times in my life, and they can change some aspect of it, just by giving me a new perspective.

5. I spend my days daydreaming about every single thing. Someone could say one thing, and I'll think about it for long time, trying to imagine the different possibilities of what they said.

6. I have some bad nightmares, but they don't really make sense, and they connect to some of the things I day dream about, which is really weird cause they feel very very real to me.

7. I am a very quiet person, and while I can be loud and outgoing at some times, I usually perfer to be in my room listening to music and not saying anything at all. I also hate being around people I don't know, which is why, when I go to a party, I tend to only talk to the people that I do know.

8. I never truly get over the people that I had a serious crush on. Ever since grade 8. There will always be a part of me that will like them, though I am mostly friends with them now.

9. My mind never shuts up, which means it takes me about two hours to get to sleep because that is how long it will take for my mind to just relax.

10. I only feel alone when I'm around lots of people, and then when I am actually alone, I feel perfectly fine.

NINE ways to win my heart

1. Play guitar. I have a weakness for it.

2. Don't be someone different when we're out with friends and when we are alone. Be yourself at all times, or will more than likely just get annoyed with the change.

3. DO NOT CALL ME SHORT!!!! I already know that I am short. I have been short my whole life.. It's like telling someone that they are black. They already know it, so why do you have to tell them???

4. Visit me at work, even if it's just for two seconds..

5. Accept that I get uncomfortable when you call me pretty, or anything like that. Cute is okay. Anything more makes me feel awkward.

6. Introduce me to the kind of music that you like. Chances are I will like it too. And listen or at least accept what I listen to. I know some of it is really random, but I like it.

7. Take picture of me with you, let me take pictures of you, take random funny videos of us together. Anything that I can look at later and say, that was a good day.

8. Making me laugh is always a good way to make me want to hang out with you more. I love laughing.

9. You don't have to be constantly talking. Sometimes more can be said with silence than with a million words.

EIGHT ways to annoy me

1. Calling me short. Already explained lol.

2. Tlkin lke dis. Using u instead of you. l8r instead of later. It's just so annoying.

3. Constant need to fill every second with useless chatter.

4. Blaming me for something that is not my fault (mostly at work. Like I have control over the taxes! Fuck off people! I'm just a cashier!)

5. Girls who think that being a dumbass is the way to get guys to like you, and act all ditzy around guys.

6. Yes, some internet videos are funny the first time. playing them over and over again is just annoying. And there are some that are actually just stupid and not funny at all.

7. Being left out of things that all my friends are doing. Like not being invited somewhere or anything of that sort.

8. When text messages go unanswered. You could at least say something. Don't care if it's just one word.

SEVEN things I want to do before I die

1. See these bands/singers: AFI, All Time Low (Yay seeing them soon!), Our Innocence Lost, and Taylor Swift.

2. Return to England, and stay there for at least 3 months. Basically, move there, even if it's just for a short time.

3. Go to Australia.

4, Fall in love and get married.

5. Finish a book/story.

6. Learn to play the guitar.

7. Visit Japan.

SIX things I need

1. Friends

2. Music

3. Dreams

4. Love

5. Colour

6. Rain

FIVE things I'm scared of

1. Insane Asylums

2. The people in the above (doctors included)

3. Needles

4. Fish

5. Mirrors at night/in the dark, when they are covered by something during the day.

FOUR favorite things in my room

1. iPod

2. Computer

3. Books

4. Bed

THREE things I do everyday

1. Listen to music

2. Text someone

3. Wash my face

TWO things I'll always cherish

1. My ideas and ideals in my head

2. My friends that I know I will always have.

ONE confession I must make

I have a lot of secrets, and no, I won`t tell you. Some people do know some, but I would rather keep them to myself, at least for now.

Yay for being able to Write :)

Murder for the Vengeance – Twilight Academy 1

Plane rides suck. They are long and there is absolutely nothing to do on plane rides. It’s worse when you have to ride a plane alone, going to some boarding school that you don’t know, and the flight is 6 hours long, taking you from your nice home in Ottawa all the way to London, England. A whole ocean away from your friends and family. Plane rides suck.

I can’t sleep on planes. I end up staying awake and being extremely bored the whole damn flight. Thank god for my iPod though. If I didn’t have that…Oh man. Currently it’s playing Crushcrushcrush by Paramore. I closed my eyes, listening to the music.

Somehow, I had managed to get into some crazy exclusive boarding school overseas. Of course, it’s not a high school. Oh no. It’s a university. So not really a “boarding school”, but it was very exclusive and everyone lived on campus. Apparently it was run like a high school..? I had no idea. I had never even heard of it when my parents, all happy and excited, told me I had gotten a scholarship and was going there for free.

Oh and the tuition for this school? Oh yeah, that was about $100,000. And by dollars, I mean pounds. As in multiply that by about 3 and that’s how much it is Canadian. Basically I somehow got a free ride to this school.

Oh if I could trade that scholarship for actual money….I’d be living a good life.

Who the heck pays that much for their child to go to school anyway????

One more thing about this school: They sent a private jet to take me there. As in it lands right at the school. I have a feeling this school will be in a castle and all nice and pretty…. Maybe it will be Hogwarts… Ha ha imagine…

The plane took off, and it was really smooth. I can’t say I’ve ever been on a private plane before, so I don’t really know how they fly… I have been on a plane before, and I’ve taken this journey to England twice. This was the first time the plane took off and it felt like nothing. It was nice. Maybe I would be able to sleep. And hopefully the food will be better.

The plane ride wasn’t too bad. It was pretty gentle, and the food was actually edible. I managed to fall asleep for part of it, and so it didn’t really feel like such a long flight. I woke up about 20 minutes before we were supposed to be landing. I took this time to go through my stuff to change.

My parents believed that this school, being highly elite and such, would be very preppy and high class, and so I had to “dress the part”. So I was in this nasty skirt-suit in this horrible pink colour. Basically, it looked completely terrible, and very not me. So I stashed some clothes in my carry on and now I could change my clothes.

I went into the bathroom (Which was oddly roomy) and quickly took off the horrible monstrosity that was supposed to be clothes. I pulled my hair out of its boring pony tail. I put on my red and black mini school girl skirt with the big silver buckle. I put on a black halter top, and a tie that matched my skirt. I mussed up my hair, letting the red layer underneath the black show through. I put in my little red bow clip in it. I put my lip piercing back in, same with my left eyebrow ring. I pulled on my big black lace up boots with the large heals. They were my “hooker-ass-kicking-I-could-kill-you-in-five-seconds” boots. I loved them.

All dressed up now, I washed off the “pretty in pink” make up and put on my regular stuff. Dark eye shadow around the eyes, a little bit of glitter as well. Some dark red lip gloss. Volume pumping mascara. Change those earrings to something better… Some angel wings.

I looked quickly in the mirror. Perfect. I could care less what these people there think. I just hoped I’d be able to find someone who wasn’t totally preppy so that I could have someone to talk to there.

After landing, the attendant got my bags and brought them inside. I was left to follow some other guy (Didn’t catch his name. He talked fast), and he brought me to see the Dean.

I was right, it was a castle. A really, really big one. One that looked like the Palace of Versailles. Only grander. And less shiny. It was less white and more with the black and reds and other colours. Sort of a gothic version of it I guess.

I followed the guy through the large, ornate doors, through a grand hallway (the “Grand Entranceway” I was told), which had a large chandelier and lots of old looking paintings on the wall. I wanted to look at them, but I had to hurry to keep up with the guy. He walked really fast. We went up this stairway that was hidden behind a large painting of horses running. After climbing the stairs, (I hate stairs with a passion. I really hoped there was an elevator somewhere in this place.), we were at a plain wooden door, which I was told to wait by until the Dean called me in. The guy left, and I was alone, staring at this wooden door, waiting.

I looked around. The walls were made of stone. There were no paintings, or any sort of decoration around. Just the stairs and a door. I started picking at my nails, seeing as there was really nothing else to do. Just then the door opened, and this really young guy stood there. He was average height, with dark brown hair, wearing jeans and a collared shirt. He looked about 25, and damn. He was drop dead gorgeous.

“Ah, Shannon. Good to see you. Come in.” He said in this silky smooth voice. Wait a second. Was he the Dean?? He was so young! I stumbled in after him, a little shocked that he could possibly be the Dean. Seriously! So young! So hot! No! Can’t thank about him that way. Not a good way to start the year. Get a grip Shannon!


“Have a seat.” He gestured to a chair, making my internal rambling stop. I turned to where he pointed, and saw a nice comfy looking seat. There were two, and a desk in front of them, and a chair in which the Dean sat. I took the chair closest to me and continued to look around. The room was simple. Round. There were a few bookshelves, and a few paintings, but it was mostly bare, save for the large window over-looking the grounds. I hadn’t seen much of the grounds but I imagined they were going to be stunning, breathtaking, much like the rest of the school.

“So welcome to Twilight Academy. I’m the Dean, name’s John Winchester. Just call me John.” He smiled a nice friendly smile. “You’ll find that this school is very different from any school you’ve been to. Our classes are unique, as well as our staff and student body. There are things here you will discover that you could never find anywhere else. And I have a feeling a few things will shock you at first, but I’m sure you’ll get used to them. You should fit in well here.”

John stood up and headed to the door, motioning for me to follow him. “I’ll take you down to the cafeteria, where you will meet your roommates. You’ll be in a suite style room, meaning you have your own room, then a shared room with three others.” We were walking back down the stairs, and then through the Entranceway. “The rooms here are much larger than the normal dorm rooms, and it’s really like your own apartment. I especially like the room you’re in. One of my favorites. And one of the biggest. Usually saved for our scholarship students.”

Sweet. Biggest room. I liked this school so far.

We walked through the Entranceway and had come to two large doors. John pushed them open, and stepped inside. I followed, and then stopped. I looked around at everyone there. My heart actually stopped.

There had been a distinct chatter in the room, but it all stopped when I walked through the doors. I couldn’t breathe. How could someone leave out this obviously huge detail in their description of the school?

I scanned the crowd, hoping I was wrong, maybe I had missed something. But I hadn’t. I looked to John, he was smiling.

“Sorry Shannon, I guess we forgot to mention. Twilight Academy is an all boys university.”

Well, shit.

Quotes Pages 13 - 18

Travis: “alright that I will do, but yea I’m going to wal-mart now woot”

Travis: “ready for a hot abortion flick?”
Sam: “Bring it on!!”

Travis: “What the fuck at naked women?”

Sam; “I might have jumped at my phone vibrating...”

Sam: “Blah. S’all I got to say. What the fuck singing?”

Sam: “I wish I was a vampire... that would be so cool... what the eff is going on in this movie?”

Sam: “keep rubbing that shit in my face and I’ll show you friends....”

Sam: “Aww muffin.”
Travis: “its buttercup thank you”

Sam: “psh you don't know me! You don't know ma baby's daddy! That works better spoken...It needs one of those snaps.”

Sam: “no I’m not...I can't sweeten my own coffee (Fuck you peanut get out of my head)”
Sam; “I try not to creep people. It’s creepy.”

Sam: “man I’m having like a coughing war with my family. it’s like, one person coughs, then another one tries to out-cough them... it only works cause we're all sick. I’m losing horribly”
Josh: “That’s a good thing.”
Sam: “Probably.”

Josh: “klajl;kjsd;lfkjhjsldkjfhlakjhsdkjlhkljahfklhskldfhklsdfkljahkjlhsdkjh”
Sam: “Why?”

Josh: “kgfkgg”
Sam: “ohhhhhhh boO!”

Josh: “have u ever told you that you're stunningly gorgeous?”
Sam: “have I ever told myself that? Yes obviously...”

Sam: “joshhhyyyyyyyyy”
Josh: “I’m busy, Shh.”

Josh: “EWWWW SHE KNOWS THIS NASTY GUY I USED TO WORK WITH”
Sam; “Omg stop creeping her!”

Josh: “you want me to sleep with her?”
Sam: “I think it would be funny.”
Josh: “u have a weird sense of humour...”

Sam: “I’m bored so I’m reading about serial killers....yeahhhhh”
Josh: “WHAT? Wtf? Sam, you’re scaring me...”
Sam: “bored Sam likes to read about people killing each other...I like the unsolved ones cause they’re all like mysterious and shit.”

Sam: “JOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY”
Josh: “What? WHAT?”
Sam: “OMG HE LIVES!”

Travis: “he’s to busy listening and talking about haloween”
Sam: “Halloween.”
Travis: “Fuck you.”

Sam: “silence of the lambs........I’ve never seen it...I kinda want to....which is weird”

Travis: “Omg he’s part of the real world.”

Josh: “Slut. Jokes.”
Sam: “That makes no sense.”

Sam: “that is chilly then....no wonder you're chillin... Ha ha I’m so funny...”

Travis: “we’re all impressed josh can use a computer”

Travis: “who is the portable radio?”

John: “Alex is portable radio”
Josh: “As usual. Alex is a whore.”

Alex: “i just got back from doing laundry..what the fuck is this smishmorshon?”

Sam: “Sam is confused.....but I also have ice cream...”
Josh: “Sam don’t show off its rude.”

Josh: “I’m stoked for this convo.”
Mike: “I hate your guts.”

Adam: “let's have a discussion of 18th century Norwegian literature”

Jenn: “now that Adam’s here I don’t feel comfortable”
Josh: “Jenn you’re being rude.”
Adam: “I get that a lot.”

Alex: “im anti abortion.. but pro killing babies”
John: “Don’t be that guy.”

Alex: “LOUD TEXTUAL NOISES!”

Adam: “I think.”
John: “Do you?”
Travis: “yea not quite.”

Sam: “Travis ate my food!”
John: “Ha ha go Travis!”

Travis: “Yo, you people aren’t guys?”
John: “I am John! What!?”

Adam: “Sal wanted to know if my passport identifies me as a Christian”

Adam: “I actually had to tell him that you cannot drive to Cuba.”

Alex: “say "no but it does let me ride the 'religious crusader's' section of the plane”

Adam: “he was talking about Silons”
Alex: “"the shylouns .."”
Travis: “Wtf is bsg?”
Adam: “Don’t even.”
Alex: “Cylons you illiterate bastard”

Adam: “spelling and reading are two different things”
Mike: “Asian people drive bad”
Alex: “vrooooooooooooooosh”

Travis: “you’re a silon”

Alex: “it’s funny because i have josh's MSN nickname as "Patty O'Newell".. so every time he talks it makes me laugh”

Adam: “Alex. Did you know.”
Mike: “That.”
Adam: “at the end of Ocarina of Time, when you fight Ganon (not Ganondorf, but Ganon)”
Josh: “The worked out sadly well.”
Adam: “you can beat him by hitting his tail with Deku Nuts?”
Mike: “NOW YOU KNOW! Bill Nye ftw.”

Travis: “josh you’re a douche”
Josh: “I did.”

Travis: “look who decided to show up”
Mike: “Unicorns.”
Travis: “No no unicorns allowed.”
Mike: “Why not?”
Travis: “they'll be killed and turned into expensive dog food”

Josh: “yo k, if i invite Brea, will u children behave?”
Mike: “Yes.”
Adam: “...”
Mike: “NICE BREASTS. Oh wait...”

Sam: “I need another girl!! Too many guys!”
Mike: “Sexually.”
Josh: “That’s what she said.”
Sam: “Mike is right.”
Mike: “Clearly.”

Mike: “our typing is like a spaceship”

Adam: “let's just pretend I'm a girl”
Travis: “yea invite her lets have some fun”
Adam: “(I remember when my uncle told me that when I was six years old...*shudder*)”
Travis: “i don’t no if she can read as fast as we can type any way”
Adam: “..so wrong. Travis, take out ‘as fast as we can type anyway’ and we’re good.”

Adam: “there are no electrical outlets in the kitchen!”

Travis: “SOMEONE FACEBOOK CREEP HURRY”

Mike: “Religion is not genetic Josh.”

Travis: “Sam you have the least relevant comments”

Adam: “One f Josh, one f.”

Travis: “Adam is always professional, almost to professional”
Tom: “Too”

Josh: “wow, what is this a grammar lesson?”

Mike: “A show about Arabs?”
Adam: “Starring my roommate.”

Josh: “Mr. Adam, how do I tie this strap of dynamite to myself?”

Tom: “I believe Josh could be a modern day Prometheus”
Josh: “...”

Travis: “condoms are flawed hence why josh was born”

Travis: “my god this conversation is anarchy”

Adam: “so we started talking about jelly”

Josh: “what do u want from me?”
Mike: “Muffins.”

Travis: “calling people stupid only makes you stupid, don’t call names, use your words”
Sam: “Those are words Travis.”

Travis: “shut up mike you’re a fallacy”

Josh: “A.D.D or what kids?”
Adam: “ADHD for me please.”
Sam: “ADD right here.”

Josh: “secrets don’t make friends”

Josh: “yo, someone give me some good irish fold music to listen to”
Adam: “I don’t have any of that. I have a picture of a tiger with Down's Syndrome.”

Adam: “we should make a comic book. With a super hero called chromosown. Who gives people different hereditary disabilities?”

Sam: “I like cereal! I killed the convo. I feel special. *dances*”
Josh: “... u are special, and not in a good way. Jokes.”
Sam: “Ouch Josh.”
Travis: “yea for real”
Sam: “You too??”
Travis: “No.”
Sam: “Why do I talk to you people???”

Sam: “i am always witty. I’m wittastic. Oh yes.”
Josh: “Oh god no. Don’t start making up words now, ya hear?”
Sam: “I don’t make up words, you just don’t have the 2199 dictionary! YES. i have a dictionary from the future. It’s cause I pown you. Yes I did just say that.”

Sam: “SHUT UP BRAIN I'M TRYING TO THINK”
Josh: “You crazy.”
Sam: “It’s not me, it’s me brain!”

Sam: “there’s supposed to be a happy face instead of a J. Wtf? How did that happen?”

Sam: “and i totally realized that i talk to myself a lot.”
Sam: “oh crap im doing it again...”
Sam: “uhhhh”
Sam: “MUFFINS”
Sam: “FLYING EVIL MUFFINS”
Sam: “I mean”
Sam: “WHAT?????”
Sam: “And we're done....”
Sam: “For now...”
Sam: “DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAA”
Sam: “yes, there was a NA at the end of that”
Sam: “I WANT TO LISTEN TO SOME BACH!”
Sam: “yeah I’m cool like that”
Sam: “all the cool kids listen to Bach”
Sam: “Seriously though.”
Sam: “Im going to stop talking to myself...”
Sam: “Righttttttttttt”
Sam: “Now!”
Sam: “Bam!”
Sam: “I’m done.”
Sam: “:o)”
Josh: “... what?!”

Sam: “LMAO I did not just picture a bunch of girls throwing themselves at your feet and then you standing there all smug like...... for some reason there was a golden throne in the background and you had a cape on....hee hee”

Sam: “it was random how it just popped into my head...I almost laughed out loud...not cause of the whole girl thing cause it could happen, but at the expression on your face... oh man”

Sam: “uhh uhhh uhhhh uhhh uhh omg i want tea. Lmao that rhymed!”
Josh: “...what?”
Sam: “I have no idea.”

Sam: “if you can handle it”
Sam: “CAN YOU HANDLE IT?”
Sam: “I don’t think they can handle this...”
Sam: “...my body too bootlicius for you!”
Sam: “I mean...”
Sam: “I didn’t start singing that”
Sam: “Shut up.”

Sam: “omfgmdhaskjfhdsk. I love this song. Why have I not listened to it in so long?”

Sam: “You called me a popcorn whore! You bitch!”

Sam: “I thought it said these are my hands. I was going to be like, good job Josh.”

Sam: “then they could have made one pair black and one pair white and you could mix if you wanted to....AND WHAT ABOUT THE POOR ASIAN KIDS??? they get nothing :(“
Josh: “Fuck the Asians.”
Sam: “aww...I like the Asians...the Chinese not so much....but other Asians....well actually mostly just Japanese people.....”

Sam: “he says he wears them for rowing...I think he just likes to prance around in tights with the underwear on the outside and cape, jumping from his bed saying I AM SUPERMAN!”
Sam: “yeah I’m that cool that I can come up with stuff just like that :P”

Sam: “est tu...there? I don’t know how to say that in French...”

I'm a fire to burn for you

With my lungs filled deep
One last chance to breathe
The timing was right
I waited all night for them to leave

I'll move in close
Try to make you smile with charming lines
I'll steal your time for a while

I'll tell the truth
I'm scared to death right now
But I'll light the fuse
I'm a fire that burns for you (whoa)
There's just something about her
There's nothing without her here
I can't stop thinking about her
I can't live without her here
I'm a fire that burns to light the sky

A beauty to match your eyes look up at the stars
They're shining bright for you tonight
We'll dance to shake the cold
And while I'm holding you close
I'll touch my lips to yours
And feel our love unfold

I'll tell the truth
I can't live without you here
I'll light the fuse
I'm a fire that burns for you

(whoa)

There's just something about her
There's nothing without her here
I'm a fire that burns for you
I just can't stop thinking about her
I can't live without her here

Even though its only been one night
It somehow feels just like
I've known you for all my life

I'll tell the truth
I can't live without you here
I'll light the fuse
I'm a fire that burns for you

(whoa)

There's just something about her
There's nothing without her here
I'm a fire that burns for you
I just can't stop thinking about her
I can't live without her here

I'm a fire that burns for you.


So I am ready to start the writing of my essay. Once I get it started, then I should be fine. The only problem would be getting it to the right page length. It will more than likely end up too short which sucks. But hey, maybe I can just elaborate greatly... use flowery words and such lol.

Lucky St. - Cartel
Growing Up - Fall Out Boy
Greatest Time Of Year - Aly & Aj (I know, it's a Christmas song :P)
It's A Beautiful Day - Queen
East Northumberland High - Miley Cyrus
Fabulous - High School Musical 2
Enough - Default
Blue and Yellow - The Used
Omobolasire - Prozzak (uhm, hell yes)
The End of A Fraud - Armor for Sleep
Hakuna Matata - Lion King (tee hee)
Mistakes We Knew We Were Making - Mae
Where Did I Go Right? - Hilary Duff
Hit The Lights - All Time Low (I'm freaking excited for their new cd. Like, you have no idea)
Worker Bees - Billy Talent
Light The Fuse - Phone Calls From Home (It's this song that is at the start of this blog. It has such amazing lyrics. Magical.)
Fly With Me - 98 Degrees
Say Anything (Else) - Cartel

OKAY!
I will write this essay. And then it will be done. And then I will have nothing to worry about except reading for English, and that's only a play which is very short and so it won't even take long :)

Food = Good

Just ate. Made some fajitas. Oh it was sooo good. A great break from work. i now have a thesis, and I am just typing out the quotes and citations so that I can just write and copy and paste everything. I'm also texting Arijana (oh man I miss her!!) and Travis, who I was talking to on msn but then he went to poker night. I was invited but I decided not to go so I can do this essay, since I work the next three days so I don't exactly have that much time to work on it.

Music

Highway to Hell - AC/DC
You Lay A Whole Lot Of Love On Me - Shania Twain
Tonight - Jonas Brothers
Any Man Of Mine - Shaina Twain
House of Ill Trepideation - Jakalope
The Arms of Sorrow - Killswitch Engage
The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls
Put Yourself In My Place - Kylie Minogue
This is the Countdown - Mae

I Really Hate Essays

They just take so long to do! It's just not cool.
So far, I just have a thesis (well, sort of) and some quotes that I have to sort through.

Anyways, here are the new songs...

Cover Me - Mae
In the End - Linkin Park
Gimme More - Briteny Spears
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
Think It Over - Wave (Such an old song!!!)
In The Fall - Billy Talent
Fearless - Taylor Swift (<3)
Just Dance - Lady Gaga
Rough Hands - Alexisonfire
Fuego - Bond
On A Night Like This - Kylie Minogue
Ain't No Particular Way - Shania Twain
Hey We're Gonna Be Alright - Jonas Brothers
Chicago Is So Two Years Ago - Fall Out Boy
I'm A Fake - The Used
When Your Heart Stops Beating - +44
This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race - Fall Out Boy
You're The One That I Want - Grease (Uh, hell yes!)
Hit Me Baby One More Time - Britney Spears (Ha ha oh wow)

Back to work...damnit.

Gah Essays

I hate essays!
I've got everything printed, and I have found quite a bit using the lovely search function on the pdf files. And then i ran out of one I could search though. So now I actually have to read. Which sucks. grr.

Songs.

7 Things - Dave Days
Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah
Bella's Lullaby - Carter Burwell
Yesterday's Feelings - The Used
Hey Jude - Joe Anderson (Across the Universe Soundtrack)
Get Out of This Alive - Default
Super Trouper - Abba
Thank You For The Venom - My Chemical Romance
When He Leaves You - Shania Twain
The WTO Kills Farmers - Anti-Flag
I Am The Walrus - Bono (Across The Universe Soundtrack)
Comin' Home - City and Colour
Hiding From The Sun - Default
Tell Me Why - Taylor Swift
The End. - My Chemical Romance
Kids of the Future - Jonas Brothers
One Trillion Dollars - Anti-Flag
Happiness is a Warm Gun - Joe Anderson (Across the Universe Soundtrack)
7 Deadly Sins - Our Innocence Lost (AHHHHHHHHHHH Love.)

Yes, I do love Our Innocence Lost...very much so lol. yayy

History Essay

Okay, it's essay time. Awesome stuff...Not really. I hate essays.
I've barely even started this one lol.
I'm currently trying to print out all the readings that I need so that I can look through them to figure out what the hell I'm writing about. I'm probably going to do what I do when I read the books for English, which is do a bit, then take a break. I'll keep this updated on what I'm doing. Including the song thing again cause I find that to be entertaining. To me at least. Okay I think that thing should be printed now, so I will get back to reading through all this shit. Awesome stuff.

Nevermind

...about the reading lol I gave up.

Now I'm watching The Suite Life On Deck... Good times :)

Reading

So I'm going to finish this English book....Green Grass Running Water....Oh how fun. I'm like halfway done it. I'll do what I did for the other book, which is update randomly as I read it, and put what I listened to while reading it. So far:

Walking Disaster - Sum 41
Bach: Organ Concerto in A Minor, BWV 593 - Mvt. 1 - Bach
I Caught Myself - Paramore
7 Things - Dave Days
Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah
Bella's Lullaby - Carter Burwell

Back to reading now!

Still Sick

I'm still sick. And I've had Forever and Always by Talyor Swift stuck in my head for a long long time now...

PS totally can't wait for her video for White Horse to come out!!

Sickness

I'm sick.
Life sucks.
I have quotes.

Sam: “man I’m having like a coughing war with my family. it’s like, one person coughs, then another one tries to out-cough them... it only works cause we're all sick. I’m losing horribly”
Josh: “That’s a good thing.”
Sam: “Probably.”

Josh: “klajl;kjsd;lfkjhjsldkjfhlakjhsdkjlhkljahfklhskldfhklsdfkljahkjlhsdkjh”
Sam: “Why?”

Josh: “kgfkgg”
Sam: “ohhhhhhh boO!”


And now I will go back to being sick....

Late at night

It's not that late but hey lol

I'm watching Friends bloopers and oh man I'm laughing so hard. My stomach actually hurts from laughter.... I'm crying now too oh sweet jesus

i'll go back to laughing obscenely now.

<3

Heh heh

I might want that song on my ipod.. :p

Cold

My feet are freezing :S

I have to do a film review for tomorrow. I really don't want to do it.

I'm hungry but I have to wait for dinner. Boo.

I want to nap.

Quotes pages 7 -12

These are mostly me and Josh lol. Took me two night to go through our conversations... And that was just on my laptop!!

Sam: new song
Sam: i spelt dancing wrong again lol
Sam: text message!
Sam: Text message answered!
Sam: And you're still not done!
Sam: Jesus you’re slow
Sam: I though guys were supposed to be faster than girls
Sam: I almost wrote fatter lol
Sam: THERE'S A RIOT ON THE ROOFTOPS!
Sam: yes I (L) this song
Sam: :)
Sam: seriously man...
Sam: slowpoke much
Sam: good
Sam: fucking
Sam: song
Sam: come on itunes!
Sam: know what I want to listen to!
Sam: yayyyy
Sam: lol we started singing this song yesterday at Adam’s... that was so random and funny... Justin needs to put his pictures up
Sam: I want to see what I look like with that awesome sward I stole from Jason...:P
Sam: wow msn works but internet fails
Sam: goddamn it
Sam: other computer!
Sam: oh wait!
Sam: it works. yay
Sam: but why oh why is it so damn slow???
Sam: faking jesus!
Sam: JEBUS!
Sam: lol he's married to Arijana
Sam: good times
Sam: maybe it'll be faster on the desktop....
Sam: hurrryyyyyyy upppppppppp
Sam: talking to myself is fine but not for so long!
Sam: Never coming home, never coming home...

Josh: “Hey.”
Sam: “Oh, it’s you. Damnit.”

Josh: “You do know Obama’s black right?”
Sam: “Yes, I’m not a retard...”

Sam: “An outline should look like an outline I think.”

Josh: “Boo”
Sam: “AHHHHHHH *runs away from scary ghost*”

Josh: “I got bunnies on my mind... sweet, soft bunnies. They bring chocolate to your house, didn’t u know?”

Josh: “Why is he dead? That’s a shitty way to start the movie!”
Sam: “Movie? Way to go...”

Josh: “God hates us.”
Sam: “I KNEW IT! Damn.”

Josh: “I will NOT stick that in my juice box, it’s icky.”

Sam: “Woah now, I’m very confused. I have no idea what I just read...”

Josh: “you’re supposed to be my music suppository where everything is stored.”
Sam: “Do I look like HMV to you? Psh, whatever.”
Josh: “Only a little.”

Sam: “OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SONG! ...Ahem...Anyways...”

Sam: “Kill me now. Please. I hate this book.”

Josh: “Take that!”
Sam: “uh okay *is scared for Josh’s sanity*”
Josh: “You’re only NOW scared for my sanity?”
Sam: “*Is on the phone with the nice doctors with the white coats and the big needles* They’re nice people, no need to panic.”
Josh: “And the nice jackets? Yay!”
Sam: “Yes, the ones where you get to hug yourself.”

Sam: “Be right back...Nevermind..”

Sam: “how I miss weather....what a lovely paragraph...stupid book...”

Josh: “I feel like killing time in the bathroom...That came off really weird...”
Sam: “...I don’t want to know what you do in the bathroom when you’re bored thank you very much... I get enough of that from Adam...”


Josh: “You make it sound like I’m retarded...”
Sam: “... :p”
Josh: “God hates you in particular. Above all others, he hates you.”
Sam: “Yes, and? The devil loves me more than you.”
Josh: “Means he’ll only torture you that much more.”
Sam: “no no. I help him with torturing others, we be tight.”
Josh: “That’s a little too kinky for me.”

Josh: “I’m sorry to hear that.”
Sam: “What, that I’m not getting drunk?”
Josh: “No, that you’re abusing drugs.”
Sam: “Oh.”

Josh: “She devil. You’re the fucking spawn of Satan.”
Sam: “Okay ”

Sam: “I’ll be back. Like Arnold.”

Sam: “I’m back....Where are the kittens?”
Josh: “Dead.”
Sam: “What?”
Josh: “Why did you ask about kittens?”
Sam: “What kittens?....No seriously, what kittens??”

Josh: “Just do it so I can call you black.”

Sam: I forgot how good looking Joe Jonas is...
Sam: lmao
Sam: I’m silly
Sam: I’m not watching family channel at 12....
Sam: (8) Josh is never coming back, never coming back
Sam: seriously boy wheredjago?
Sam: ............helloooooooooooooo?
Sam: *echo hellooooooooooooo*
Sam: *oooooooooo*
Sam: damn
Sam: seriously
Sam: I won't be here all night
Sam: WHERE DID YOU GO????????

Sam: “I’m black again. OH MY GOD! I’m like Michael Jackson only opposite. And no little boy touching.”
Josh: “Oh my god I was just going to say that!”

Sam: “...and you’re not here again...”

Sam: “You said got, not god...”
Josh: “Oh shut up.”

Sam: “I’ll just be over here...Commenting on the show...”

Sam: “You are....hmm....A turkey!”

Sam: “Ryan, stop being mean to Josh. That’s my job.”
Josh: “Thanks for the backup...”

Sam: “People are going to get Holocausted.”

Josh: “I’M NOT A GIRL!?!?!”

Sam: “Oh man, I’m like dying...*cough cough dies*”

Sam: “Yeah, I got nothing for ya. Why did I just look anyway? I got my own work to do!”

Josh: “Everyone is a bad singer on msn...”

Sam: “... I wasn’t just on my bed dancing to Miley Cyrus...”

Sam: “BAAA! I’M A SHEEP! ...I think I win...”

Sam: “candles, flowers, chocolate, and sparkly vampire..... Wait, one of those isn’t real...”

Sam: “Uhh...Kris is talking about math...I’m confused...”
Josh: “And you’re telling me why?”
Sam: “i don’t know.”

Sam: “You still here?”
Josh: “No.”
Sam: “Aww fine then.”

Sam: “Brb, something in my house is burning.”

Sam: “What did Africans trade with Europeans?”
Josh: “Their lives.”
Sam: “No... besides that.”

Sam: “I have the random craving to go out and buy crayons or pencil crayons and a colouring book and just colour for hours......”
Josh: “Do it!”
Sam: “I want to...I know we sell colouring books and such at staples.....and I would go out and get them but that would require me to get dressed......”

Sam: “....I started a sentence and totally blanked on what I was going to say... I got to The then...nothing...I got a text and got distracted. Maybe I should turn my phone off... Psh, no way that’s crazy talk!”

Sam: “I WANT MY SHOEEEEEEEEEEEE”

Travis: “Tim? Tim? Tim?”
Sam: “TIMMEH!”
Travis: “ha ha ha ha”
Sam: “Gobbles?”

Sam: “Tim is... JOSH! Tell him who Tim is!”

Sam: “Oh snap! Someone just got shot dead!”
Josh: “Sam, I just said you fail. Oh you mean the movie...”

Travis: “Shortness can be terrifying.”
Josh: “Only on a bad day.”
Travis: “Oh just any day she feels like it.”

Josh: “unno, I bet I could take Sam, but something tells me she's the kinda girl to sneak up and kick u in the balls from behind sorta thing”
Sam: “I would never do that! I would kick you from the front so I can watch you in pain :o)”

Josh: “Travis, you’re a huge woman sometimes.”

Sam: “Josh, do you have a gun with you?”
Josh: “No.”
Sam: “Fuck.”
Travis: “you guys are silly.”

Travis: “how’s Sam going to reach is throat? lol, ask him to bend down for a second”
Sam: “or i could just kill you first then use your limbs to beat him to death”

Sam: “I SHALL DISTRACT YOU!”

Sam: “Uh, it’s like bubbly? I don’t know how to explain it lol”

Sam: “Yes, I am insane...What’s your point?”

Josh: “Popcorn whore.”

Josh: “Hello.”
Sam: “CLOUD IS MADE OF AWESOME!”

Sam: “YOU MADE ME FALL IN THE WATER DAMNIT!”

Sam: “omfg i cannot land on the goddamn hippo! I hate you Tarzan!”
Josh: “You are wicked at wickedness.”
Sam: “Damn straight.”

Josh: “I want to cut her fingers off.”
Sam:”Break her computer into pieces.”
Josh: “Break her FACE into pieces.”
Sam: “Break HER into pieces...”

Sam: “well whatever. I’m not paying attention. I’m feeding rice to the hungry. i am saving the world. TAKE THAT CLASS!”

Josh: “I can see me writing lol”

Josh: “well we went chair shopping at Lazy-boy and that just set the pace for the rest of the night.”
Sam: “Yeah, it would.”

Sam: “why are we capturing Amanda and Liam?”
Josh: “What the fuck?”
Sam: “have you been paying attention at all?”
Josh: “no.”

Sam: “I’m a topic change ninja”

Sam: “Ha ha your face.”

Sam: “sorry. my stomach just grumbled....WHAT DO YOU WANT DAMNIT IM GETTING YOU FOOD SOON SHUT UP”

Sam: “hello. I cannot find the cup. Well damn”
Josh: “What cup?”
Sam: “The one I needed to find. Oh found it.”

Josh: “you empty headed troglodyte”

Josh: “you said TIT!!”
Sam: “Oh, very mature.”

Josh: “do you have a secret evil twin that eats fish heads?”
Sam: `Yes.”
Laura: “lol”
Sam: “She scares me.”
Josh: “Do you think she’ll try to replace you?”
Sam: “...sometimes....:S brb need to shank her with a fish... BACK YOU FEIND!”
Josh: “lol”
Sam: “Okay, it’s all good.”
Josh: “Epic battle?”
Sam: “Very.”
Josh: “Ha ha ha”
Sam: “She’s back in the wall now.”
Laura: “lol I’m never going to your house.”
Sam: “lol but you’ve been here so many times before”
Josh: “and never knew!?”
Laura: “lol never”
Sam: “well don’t worry she’s moving out soon...going to the nice place with the men in white jackets and padded rooms :)”
Josh: “and she can hug herself all day long?”
Sam: “Yup.”

Sam: “He is annoying.”
Josh: “Just like Travis.”

Sam: “codeworrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrdddddddddddddddd...DEAN”

Josh: “Hey.”
Sam: “yo yo. Yoyo! Oh man I wish I had one...”

Sam: “At akk”

Josh: “We win at life.”
Sam: “That’s one for the quotes pages...”

Josh: “shut your life. (Yeah that’s right, I didn’t say mouth, because it’s too big for you to close... it'd take the anti-jaws of life)”




There will be more! :)

<3

Quotes pages 1 - 6

Sam: “I’m getting to the implications! Shut up! … I think I just told myself to shut up.”

John: "So anyway...Sharpie pen.”

John: ”It’s like one of those things where you look at it, and then look at the wall, and see Jesus, only you see Peter Singer! Because, you know, he’s pretty much Jesus”

Amanda: “Nightwish! Oooh pretty colours...”

John V: “I can’t believe I sniffed the panda... It smelled so good...”

Graham: “They look like shorts!”
Aleks: “Put them on John!”

Adam P.: “Sticky foam!”

Adam P.: “Meow”

Katie: “Give me that hat!!”

Sam: “Kyle, Peanut would like me to tell you that he did your mother last night. Thank you.”

Sam: “Sorry, We were watching Sex and the City and Peanut got a little... Distracted...”
Jen: “Do I want to know?”
Sam: “No, you really don’t.”

Sam: “Want to know what happened to that kid that crapped in the pool? He died. Choking. On bird poo. Seems he thought it was snowing.”

Sam: “I CAN’T FIND THE FREAKING BIASES!! BAH!!! ... I’m making them up.”

Sam: “I'm just making all my points into a paragraphical form and such prettiness.”

Josh: “It’s a small world”

Josh: “In my world...”
Sam: “Oh that’s why it’s so small.”

Adam: “We both reached for the slave, the slave the slave the slave, we both reached for the slave for the slave.”

Veronique: “Imma steal your tractor!”

Nick J.:“You would totally steal someone’s llama.”

Sam: “You’re like my gay-straight friend.”

Sam: “Hang on, I’m ignoring you.”
Josh: “Lmao are you actually ignoring me?”
Sam: “Okay, song’s over. I can talk to you now.”

Sam: “You are forgiven.”
Josh: “Oh, well thank you. How very kind and generous of you.”
Sam: “I thought so”

Josh: “Josh feels like talking about himself in the third person so He'll sound really kool”
Sam: “yes well.... he can go right on ahead and do that. Meanwhile, the writer of this message shall go dance around the room.”
Josh: “Lmao, alrighty? That’s more strange than what he was doing... another good song?”
Sam: “nope, she just feels like dancing. This is an auotmated message”
Josh: “LMAO I’m sure she has alot of those”
Sam: “yes she does. This is an automated message. This automated message has self destrcuted. Our applogies.”
Josh: “Lmao”
Sam: “it also doesn't know how to spell”

Sam: “I ran and jumped on the couch and screamed.”
Adam P.: “I wish I was that couch.”

Adam P.: “I’ve been working out so my boobs have gotten bigger.”
Sam: “My boobs are getting bigger but not because I’ve been working out.”
...
Adam P.: “I should have asked you to show me.”
Sam: “You missed your chance.”

Sam: “It’s the essay that never ends it goes on and on it goes where it stops no one knows got nothing left to say so it’s basically fucked not that it wasn’t crap before but now it’s just gone straight to hell so fuck me I’m going to fail”

Aleks: “Hun why do you have a HSM 3 display?”
Sam: “Cause i (L) HSM 3...”
Aleks: “o.0 what'd you do with my Sam!”

Sam: “one day...when you're sleeping...all you'll hear is ‘that was easy’ and then...Death...Imagine a serial killer that did that?”
Andrei: “lol yes, I can.”
Sam: “That would be so funny.....lol it would be me.... heh heh”
Andrei: “lol you think walmart has the easy button for a lesser price?”
Sam: “lol don’t think so...that would be so funny if it did though...wal mart is stealing our slogan!!! Silly Wal Mart, easy buttons are for Staples!”
Andrei: “lol buck or 2 has them for a dollar LOL cheaper, want a warranty with your easy button? lol”
Sam: “lol want a warranty on that chocolate bar? Once it’s gone get it replaced for free!”
Andrei: “I think we can sell warranty on the easy button, I try it”

Arijana: “i wasn't aware it was a win/lose game.”
Sam: “me either... I just like saying that I win things... like life. I win at that”
Arijana: “I wish I did!”
Sam: “we both win at life my dear. Life has many winners. Not the store... but it has those too.”

Sam: “I really don't see how Australia could possibly link to the Holocaust”
Brad: “Is your prof on drugs or something?”
Sam: “Probably.”

Josh: “Fatty.”
Sam: “Obviously.”
Josh: “yeah its soo easy to tell, it’s all invisible though. Can’t see it but its there.”
Sam: “I have an invisible ring of fat around me?”
Josh: “basically... yes.”

Sam: “Captain Obvious right here.”
Josh: “Do you have a cape?”
Sam: “of course I do. I make wooshing noises too.”

Josh: “You’re almost too epic to have a conversation with”
Sam: “Hell yes.”

Sam: “it's not crack... those fries though... deep fired crack... according to ruby... Don’t know, never tried them.... lol random tangent”
Josh: “What the fuck?”
Sam: “never mind... it's from supernatural... I tend to talk in quotes.”

Josh: “mind if I ask what you are watching before you run off? Slash close this conversation? ...Which you already have...”

Sam: “I can talk and type.... or... type and...type... yeahhhhh”

Josh: “I can’t find my history coursepack.”
Sam: “...There is no coursepack...”
Josh: “Oh my god I feel like a retard.”

Josh: “Our evil plan has begun! Shun the non-believers! SHUNNNN!”
Sam: “SHUNNNNNNNN-NA!”

Josh: “I hate my life.”
Sam: “Why? It’s not even that bad.”
Josh: “I was being a little melodramatic.”

Sam: “don't you hate it when you're looking for a song but you don't know exactly which one you want and sit there changing songs for like ten minutes before finding something? Gah.”

Sam: “Mamma Mia? Yes. I have the soundtrack.”
Josh: “Hero.”

Sam: “that's not what I meant lol. Your sentence sucked and made no sense. I can't read Yoda speak”

Sam: “don't infer things! That means you assume I know shit that I don't know, you know? (And thanks to Charmed for that line)”

Sam: “TV shows me everything I need to know about the world”

Sam: “Oh my fucking god what the fuck just happened?? Sorry, I’m watching Smallville and someone just got shot. But like, slow mo, and like...the fuck...”
Josh: “Who got shot? Rando or important character?”
Sam: “Uh, Lois Lane.”

Josh: “You’re supposed to empathize with my pain”
Sam: “No freaking way.”
Josh: “Some friend you are.”

Josh: “God will smite you one of these days.”
Sam: “I’m sure he will.”
Josh: “Im 80 years.”
Sam: “You’re 80?? Damn.”
Josh: “Silence you!”
Sam: “Whatever you say old man.”

Sam: “Uh, I don’t know. Discrete subject change!”
Josh: “No.”
Sam: “MONKEY.”
Josh: “No.”

Sam: “Okay Dr. Phil...”

Sam: “I’m terrible at this whole boys like girls and girls like guys relationship deal”

Josh: “University is all about experimenting right?”
Sam: “That sounds very wrong.”

Josh: “Fuck you and your goddamned sarcasm!”
Sam: “:)”

Sam: “Being in the middle is no fun...Unless you can steal secret love notes...”

Sam: “go onto the interwebs.... go to photobucket.com... then there should be a little place that has tags, and go to quotes and sayings... or look up icons.”
Josh: “Not the interwebs! I can’t do that!”
Sam: “You don’t know how, do you?”
Josh: “Nope, not a clue.”

Josh: “That’s why you drive your own special bus. I wish I could drive my own.”
Sam: “I don’t drive it; I have someone else drive it for me.”

Josh: “wow, don’t sound too enthusiastic...you might hurt yourself”
Sam: “ow... damn... I done gone and hurt meself!”

Sam: “He wants to ninja glomp Steeves now.”

Sam: “lmao the answer for the philo question is on page 42... It’s the answer to life, the universe, and everything”
Josh: “coincidence?”
Sam: “it's not a coincidence... it's meant to be...”

Josh: “Small world.”
Sam: “That doesn’t even apply to this!”

Josh: “You’re one of the reasons I have nightmares now. I hope you’re fucking happy.”
Sam: “Hell yes I am!”

Sam: “Aww, muffin.”
Josh: “how very supportive and...unusual? “

Josh: “You’re so not supportive.”
Sam: “Why would I be?”
Josh: “Because that would be the nice thing to do. Oh wait, Sam and nice don’t go together.”
Sam: “Yeah, jeeze, where have you been?”
Josh: “Under a rock I guess.”

Sam: “I want to go to Disney Land so bad right now.”
Josh: “You are such a kid, it’s amazing.”
Sam: “A kid with a better vocabulary and a dirtier mind”
Josh: “the latter is something you REALLY shouldn’t sound so proud of...”
Sam: “with many of my friends... it's a requirement... and there I love it”

Sam: “it is actually all his fault.... damn him and his tape and sticky foam and meowing...”
Josh: “I’m not even going to go into that...”
Sam: “Good idea.”

Sam: “not much... Watching plants grow... looking at funny motivational posters... talking on msn... listening to music”
Josh: “Watching plants grow? Sounds thrilling.”

Josh: “the first 30 mins the store was open we had over 300 people come in”
Sam: “....during the first five minutes we opened we had 5 people!! Who's busy now???”

Josh: “No wait...No yeah that’s right.”

Sam: “leave them a note... you know, gone fishin or something...”
Josh: “gone outside and gotten run down.... or... gone outside and been killed.”

Sam: “whatever Ryan, go do your jazz squares”

Josh: “I’m just not talking to you.”
Sam: “Then what was that?”

Sam: “why am I always the fat African chick who eats chicken fat, calls you a cracker, and then eats you?”

Sam: “Fine, take your banana.”
Josh: “Well fuck a banana, I want the TUNA.”
Sam: “NO SOUP FOR YOU!”

Josh: “When we’re both joking, shit goes crazy.”




I'll post more later. There are a lot of conversations to go through :p

<3

Aprez les works

Lol that was so not french at all :p

I am hungry and I want to eat. But we are having pizza and yeah it's been ordered but it will take like another ten minutes to get here. And I want it now...That and I don't think they ordered anything good. I'm very picky with my food lol.

And until then, I'm going to watch Smallville. Because I'm still only on season 2 so I kinda need to watch more lol.

Laters

<3

I think...

Therefore I think that I think that I think I am! (lol Mel)

I really don’t want to go to work. And no I don’t actually want to hang out with anyone after work. Because that way I can just sort of let myself be depressed as I am without a bunch of people asking whats wrong or me having to fake having a good time or whatever. I’ve been running from being sad and depressed for long I can’t keep the smile on for long periods of time anymore. I need to just sit and think about it for a while, find a way around it, before I can go back to pasting on my fake smile, my fake happiness, and my fake face. Whenever you see it, it’s not me. I wish it was, but people prevent me from being myself because to show them that side is to trust them, and trusting leads to hurt. I’m not good at trusting people. When I trust people, even just a little, they let me down. I just want one person to prove they’re not all the same…

Smallville and Supernatural

Thank god for Thursdays. Supernatural and Smallville are such awesome shows. I'm going to be writing as I watch...or well, quoting, commenting on the episodes lol

"Where's your cape?" Ha ha too funny right there.
The 31est century...
One day you'll be known as Superman! ha ha that dude Garth is awesome. Stealing his jacket...We're here to save you and now that we have, we're leaving. How nice lol.
They all pretty much hate you...How nice.
Alien immigrants? lmao what
Garth guy looks like ron from harry potter! I must check that...to IMDB!
It's not him but whatever
Oh man oh man...what the fuck is going on with Chloe??? I'm scared.
Stupid Davis alien dude!! He broke Chloe!
Je suis confused...
Scary Chloe
I have come to the conclusion that Garth is awesome. He just keeps saying very random and funny things :)
NOOOO! Don't kill Chloe! Noo!
Lol can't fly...
Oh angry Clark
lol ACDC foot and mouth
no flight, no glasses, no cape? ha ha
And Lana thinks that that girl is insane...
Poor Chloe....she's gunna die....
aww shittt Doomsday
Davis = creepy
OHhh Disney World commercial...I want to go...Like right now.
Creepy Chloe makes me sad because I think that she is going to die. Boo, I don't want her to die...:(
Oh and there goes Lana
And I shall state it again... GARTH IS AWESOME! with his sweet like pluse thingy that was all sweet and cool like...
And Garth also = Ron Weasly...But like...super ron! lol
Yeah go super ron
They did it. And Chloe didn't die. Hell yes!
And Laura and I both got the Supernatural word of the day....DEAN lol we're cool
Aww by Ron! Come back one day!

And it's Supernatural timeee.....
Don't feel like writing here at the moment while watching so yeah...yay
laters

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Can't write

Not in a good enough mood to write much else than depressing poetry....I don't feel like being totally emo today anyway. I'll just...I don't know... whatever.

Philosophy Class ...2...

Ha ha I need more original titles for these things lol

So, Kris ditched like I thought he would. And now I have just given up on him. So now I have to move on... damn that whole moving on thing. But at least I won't getting so easily frustrated with him like I was before.

ha ha Travis :p

And no I won't say anything cool about you

I laugh at your nose!!! HA HA

Aw I'm listening to City and Colour and remembering seeing him live with Laura.... "Marry me!" oh good times, hoping the fire alarm wouldn't go off again. I miss concerts with Laura. :( I miss Laura in general....lol...

this class is boring and I'm not paying attention... There was a point when we were talking about aliens....no lie, we really were. I actually think I'm going to write more of my story that I was working on yesterday. Later

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Film Class ...2...

I already made a post called film class so this is number 2 i guess.

Talking about the movie...That I hardly watched. Woot.

And Travis is telling what kind of boxers he is wearing. How nice of him.

I finished my Philosophy in this class. I felt productive.

Wow, I never knew that there was time where there was no talking in films....Fucking tool of a teacher! oh man... He also expected us to know the complete geography of Africa. And he though we were all born in the early 80s. Cause we all look like 25....idiot...

It's really cold out.

And there is like no one in class. I think about 10, 11 people maybe? Usually like 30 people in class. But whatever. Okay 10 minutes left then food. Then I'll probably write more in philo cause I'll be bored and I forgot a movie lol

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Applications

So I have decided that maybe University isn't exactly for me, so I want to switch to Collage. So I talked to my parents about it and they said that it was fine to apply. So i applied for Pre-Music Production, which is the course I have to take before taking Music Production. If I get in then I get to go, and if not, then I will be staying at Carleton. I'm hoping I get in because I think it would be awesome. Though I would miss everyone I have met at Carleton... And I really do love everyone there. But, you know, I can make new friends there too... Oh man...Maybe there will be some new hot guys in those classes...Cause, you know, that's all that really matters ;P. But yes, I have applied and now I will have to wait like, 2 or 3 months before finding out. But hey, I gave it a shot. Either way works for me really. Though I'm not so big on the whole essay thing. I'm not that good at it lol. I think I'm going to go back to playing games now lol

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Should be doing some Philosophy

I should be doing Philo homework but I really don't want to. I read the first part of the thingy we need to read and it's really boring so nothing is getting done. At all. Instead I am downloading games to play. I wish I had a credit card so that I could actually buy some of the (better) games and then play them for more than jsut an hour lol. That's why I usually play the MSN games, cause they don't actually stop until you close them, so if you leave them open you can actually finish the game lol. But their games currently suck, so I'm on Big Fish games and they close right at the hour and when you're like, right in the middle of something it just like closes and you're like FUCK NO. It's horrible lol. Yeah I usually get the games that are like "mysteries", so you have like all these pictures and you have to find the thingys on the list to slove it...I play those oftn, mostly because then I can just put my iPod on and just sit there and sing along for hours, changing games when the stupid hour shit is up. That's what I have done today...

Well actually I did more than that today. I wrote a chapter on one of my stories. Not that it's any good, but I like it. It is of course about Twilight, though not really, it just kinda takes place in Forks and the main character (that would be me) is just kinda there and meets them but that's not the whole part. The whole part is that she went to Forks on vacation, and then her parents left, forgetting her there, and when she tries to talk to anyone outside of Forks, they don't know who she is. And while she's there she meets the people from Twilight (She's a Twilight fan lol) and she also meets someone who isn't in the book, named Alex Cullen. he's a Cullen that wasn't in the books, and then they fall in love and there's a whole "destany" type twist that crates mass chaos and destroys the world! Well not really but whatever.

And I also watched the start of Repo! The Genetic Opera. I laughed. So hard. I want to watch the rest soon cause it's funny as hell. The song about robbing graves made my day lol. "I get paid to rob GRAVESSSSSSSS" ha ha ha...

I was supposed to be hanging out with Kris today but he "couldn't find a way out of Stonebridge". Damn buses. But, see, if he had told me that earlier, then I would have been able to like drive to his house or pick him up or something. But no. He just walked to his friends house and played Call of Duty 5. Made me feel real great. Gotta love that. If he ditches me on Friday...Imma choke a bitch....I mean...he's gunna die. Cause this Friday the plan is to go see My Bloody Valentine 3D with Kyle and Amanda and Cass and Steph, and I'm excited and yet terrified to see it. So I need someone there whom I can sort of...Hide with lol. So yeah. We're going at like 10pm, which is after I work so yeah...If Kris says he can't/isn't going to come, he better have a damn good excuse (not "I'm going to be getting drunk" cause that's basically like saying "I would ratehr drink than hang out with you" which always makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.) So yeah. he better still be coming. Actually, I think I'll ask him about it. He said he would call me, either today or tomorrow, so I can ask then...Though he'll probably forget (OMG N*SYNC....sorry random). He usually forgets to call. Or he calls at like.....1am, when I'm asleep. And then I have forgotten what I wanted to talk to him about, and I'm just like...yeah okay...night.... I had almost decided to just give up on him yesterday, but I felt like that would just be a waste. 3 years. yeah, three fucking years down the drain. If he ditches me on Friday, then that's it. But if not, well, he gets a longer reprive lol. I'm really hoping he doesn't ditch me becuase I really really like him... And I really don't want to stop talking to him or give up on him but I'm scared I might have to becuase sometimes it just feels like he doesn't really care that much about me or anything. I don't even know if he actually likes me or if I'm just way to pass time or something. He can just be so frustrating sometimes. I can't always call him so I text him. And then he like doesn't answer for hours, and it's like something that I actually need an answer to. Like what we are going to do one day or whatever. Yeah, answers can sometimes be nice. This is a long ucking paragraph. Moving on.

So I decided, a few days ago, that I was going to listen to every song on my iPod (on shuffle) without skipping anything. Hence the random N*Sync moment lol. I'm currently on 300 of 1495...and that song is When I Grow Up by The Pussycat Dolls....Oh yes I am cool. lol I realized I have the most random shit on my iPod lol. Yup, I like lots of different types of music :o) It makes me feel special :P

wow this blog is fucking huge.... ha ha no one reads it anyway :o)

Maybe I should finish my philo work? Yes I think that's a good idea. This was massive. I feel acomplished. :o)

Oh and I shall leave with a quote!!

Sam: "why was the footprint on the painting?"
John: "lmao that made my day"

Don't even ask....lol

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Film class

Three way conversations with Travis and Alysia, watching movies that make no sense. Oh yes, the joys of our film class...

I have no idea what is going on in this movie...but I found a summary and thats all I need for my film review lol

I have mad cramps right now. I feel like I am dying.

Back to my conversations now...Shall paste funny parts later :)

Before going to work

Ha ha in class I made John and Adam look up Hobo on Wiki. They were reluctant but they enjoyed it in the end...that sounds wrong lol

I am so hungry but the pasta will not cook fast enough! Oh man..... Oh shit I need to call Kris...

First I shall find out what he is doing os that I know if it is a good time to call. unlike what he does which is just call me at 1 am.....and he never called yesterday at all like he said he would. damnit.

Oh he's going to play the drums. That means he will ignore for a few hours...and then be like....what cha doing....waiting for you to fucking answer! lol oh no wait, he's going to call when he's done...chances are that will be when I'm at work lol

Cook faster pasta! I am hungryyyyy

Oh yay it's done. okay eating time.

6:51 - FINISHED

FINISHED!!!

YES I AM DONE!!!

Do I have any idea as to what I just read? Nope, not a clue! But whatever, I read it. It's done. go me.

Last music update!

Take A Chance On Me - Abba
Love Story - Taylor Swift
In My Car (I'll Be The Driver) - Shania Twain
Don't Let Me Down - Across The Universe Soundtrack
Summer Shudder - AFI
Nine In The Afternoon - Panic at the Disco
Running From Lions - All Time Low
Outside of You - Hilary Duff

Total songs: 73

And now I am just going to... I'm not sure, but something that doesn't involve reading :p

Later people.

PCE

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6:24

25 pages left...

I am confused.... They're married? Whaaaaaaat?

And then those other 2 have like disappeared completely, I have no idea what's going on there...

Music update:

Take it Away [Live] - The Used
Growing Up - Fall Out Boy
Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
Saturday - Fall Out Boy
Some Say - Sum 41
No Work, All Play - Hilary Duff
Sexyback - Justin Timberlake

Now to finish those final 25 pages! And then read a summary so that I actually know what the fuck I just read :P

5:46

yes, 50 pages left :)

The girls in this book are quite the bitches, I must say... And very selfish!

Ah I think I need to stretch my legs, I have been siting for far too long...And I think the formal speech of this book is affecting the way I am talking! Oh no. Bathroom break now... And I'm thirsty. Dinner should be soon I hope.

It is almost 6 and Kris hasn't called yet. I'm going to assume he's going to do what he did yesterday and not talk to me at all today and then call at 1 am "just to say goodnight". Just...just...UGH. I don't understand him. At all. Boo.

Yes, so bathroom, drink, food. I will be back.....


Okay I have food and drink! Chilli...yummy :) As that's like all I've to eat today besides popcorn and Caprice sticks lol. Okay i think I shall read while eating so I can be done faster and then just relax and do something else.

Oh yes, song update...

Living on a Prayer - Bon Jovi
The Sun and The Moon - Mae
No Way Out - Theory of A Deadman
Bet On It - High School Musial 2 (Oh Zac Efron, you silly man)
Everything Back But You - Avril Lavigne
Bigger Than Us - Hannah Montana
Pour Some Sugar On Me - Def Leppard

Back to the book once more....

5:20

73 pages left!!!
So close... I will finish this today.. I am determined!!
Song list update:

Never Quit Lovin' - 3 Deep (old song...yes I am weird lol)
Epilogue - Mae
Always Be My Baby - David Cook
Dear Maria, Count Me In/Six Feet Under The Stars [Live on jimmy Kimmel] - All Time Low (I fucking love this performance.... I would marry all 4 of them if I could...and Vinny Vegas and Matt and everyone else in their crew lol)
I Want It That Way - Backstreet Boys (uhm...YEAHHH)
Reach Out - Hilary Duff (lol Alysia)
Greatest Time Of Year - Aly and Aj (heh heh)
Afterlife - Avenged Sevenfold
When He Leaves You - Shania Twain
You - Breaking Benajmin
Best Years of Our Lives - Baha Men (don't even ask....)

Yup. okayyyy more reading..... I will write once more once I have 50 pages left! Then 25 pages left... and then when I'm done!

Back to zee book!

4:45

Only 100 pages left!!!!

more songs to add to the list:

Thank You For The Venom - My Chemical Romance
Broken Man - Boys Like Girls
Behind the Sea - Panic at the Disco

Short break this time. Back to reading...

4:24

Nother break. this time I shall write out my soundtrack of the book! Not that they actually relate to the book but it's what I've listened to so far... I'll add new songs every time I take a break.

Standing in the Rain - Billy Talent
Nothing Nowhere - Jakalope
Anything - Mae
Cubicles - My Chemical Romance
I'm A Fake - the Used
Skylines and Turnstiles - My Chemical Romance
Ny-Quil - AFI
Classifieds - The Academy Is ...
When your Heart Stops Beating - +44
Cemetery Drive [Live] - My Chemical Romance
Slow Down - The Academy Is...
Running From Lions - All Time Low
It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Death Wish - My Chemical Romance
I'll Make A Man Out Of You - Mulan
Worker Bees - Billy Talent
So Yesterday - Hilary Duff
Bleach opening 3 - Bleach
Twisted - Carrie Underwood
Rough Landing Holly - Yellowcard
Say Goodbye - Theory of A Deadman
Up! - Shania Twain
Nails for Breakfast, Tacks for Snacks - Panic! At the Disco
Dreamer - Hilary Duff
Save Us - Cartel
Better Off - Theory of A Deadman
While My Guitar Gently Weeps - Across the Universe Soundtrack
Stranger - Hilary Duff
(You're) Timeless To Me - Hairspray
Life On The Moon - David Cook
You Can't Stop The Beat - Hairspray
What Makes A Man - City and Colour
Mr. James Dean - Hilary Duff
My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon - Fall Out Boy
Work This Out - High School Musical 2
War sucks, Let's Party! - Anti-Flag
Up! - Shania Twain (I don't even know why it's there twice....)
SOS - Abba (hell yes!)


So yeah, that's what I'm listening to lol.

This book says "ejaculated" way too much lol

Back to reading....

One Quick Note

Hairspray = Love

Watching it 3 times with Laura.. Ha ha

"I'm in love with Hairspray......Aka Zac Efron..."
*Turns and walks away*

Oh man. When you come back Laura, we must watch it! Along with episodes of Supernatural and Smallville. Love you.

3:52

Break time once again.

So that girl that I though was dead (she was shot and then drowned in the lake!!!) wasn't actually dead (???) and has come back with the other girl who was kidnapped and somehow managed to kill the dude no one else could catch or kill. And then the other dude who was also shot isn't dead either. And there is some other dude sending flowers to someone he's engaged to but I believe he is in love with her best friend??? I am so confused.

My room smells like nail polish, which is odd cause the last time I painted my nails was Friday...

I need someone to talk to! I'm alone and oh so bored...

Should get back to the book. I shall update again soon.

Omg Hilary Duff....Laura remember Stranger and we did the little arm thing from the video during that song? Good times. And during the DJ going, I wonder If he'll play Umbrella. If he does we should sing along! And then like 2 minutes later he did... Oh man I miss you!!! <3

Take A Break

Halfway done my book I have to read for English and I'm confused as fuck as to what is actually going on in it. So I break taking and just chilling/singing along to some Carrie Underwood. I'm determined to finish that book today...only 143 more pages to go... Took me about 2 hours to get that far so only another 2 or 3 more and I should be done? Maybe? Probably not, I'm reading really slow and skipping so much just cause it's so boring lol. OOO Yellowcard I haven't heard this song in so long lol. I just realized I have part of the big chocolate bar left! That means I will be able to finish this book because I will be fueled by chocolate.

I am on msn, no one talking to me. Boo. That's probably a good thing so that I can actually finish this book lol. And I sent a few texts to Josh, one of which he answered lol. And Kris said he would call today before he goes to work and so far...nothing. I don't even know what time he works at today.

So yesterday I was all nice and warm in my bed, and at about 1 am, my phone rings. I though it was just a text, so I like opened it but it was a call and I was like......That's not a text message...So I put it back down. Only problem was I had accidentally answered it lol. and then it rang again and I was like...shhh....So I put it on silent....Than ten minutes later it rang again. this time I answered it. It was Kris. And a few minutes into the conversation, his phone died, so a few minutes later he called again from his home phone. I was grumpy lol. I was sleeping so nice. And the whole day he actually didn't talk to me or anything and then he calls at 1am and expects me to talk to him.. ha ha no. Text me first to see if I'm awake THEN call... That way I may be somewhat conscious lol.

Shania Twain woot. :p "No way but up from here..."Rocking out to some good Canadian Country :P

Shit, I should get back to reading lol. Okay well I'll probably write more once I take another break, which is usually like every 20 pages or so lol. yeah back to that book.....

Work. Over.

Some guy tried to steal an iPod today. It was very interesting ha ha. And chocolate from Christmas went on sale for half off so I got some :)

So now I have a weekend off and nothing to do. And oh my guess who has stopped answering me again? Damn why why why do I always seem to get so annoyed with him and still like him and why have I not given up on him yet? It's just plain ridiculous. Maybe I just need someone better to come along or something. I don't know. I might end up giving up on him and just trying things out with someone else even though I know it's not really what I want, but then he would be happy and yeah. Mannn this sucks. I feel like I'm never going to find anyone. Or maybe I'm just looking too hard? I don't even know. Man even if I met him, him would never fall for someone like me. Why would he? I'm nothing special. I just need to get out of here, go somewhere far away. Maybe just go to England and live there. I don't care if I don't have a job there or a place to stay, it's not here. I'm just sick of everything here. Need to get away.

Best. Site. Ever?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hobo

Oh and ps, this is totally my 50th blog...I feel...accomplished? Lol I'm not sure exactly but hey

HOBOED!! ha ha ha

Ha ha

I pimped out this page.

It's cause I'm cool like that....

Actually it's cause I was really bored ha ha.

See John? My page IS better than yours :P

I just realized...

I complain on here so much, ha ha.

And it's like always about the same stuff lol

I'm a silly person :p

Philosophy Tutorial

I always seem to write when I'm class. Probably cause I'm constantly bored in class lol

I have Poker Face stuck in my head. It's been in my head since yesterday thanks to Alysia ha ha. Us and our dancing to music while everyone else is playing poker :P And making up code names for people using song titles....like Hot and Cold and Reach out and I think we have Poker Face but we're still not sure about it. ha ha.

I have no idea what we are supposed to be doing right now...umm...yeah this is fun. I think we should get to discussing. because that's more interesting, and not that i actually pay attention but its more interesting when people are yelling at each other :p

i think i'll actually sort of pay attention now.

Actually yeah i'll stop for now

Philosophy Class

I'm bored.

Prof keeps going on and on.... Hot N Cold wants to poke at my computer, and Reach Out has stolen a plug. And yes we do have code names for people :P. We need paper and a name for someone else too.... And i really need to go to the bathroom ha ha

And my battery is almost dead.

I shall return...Probably in tutorial if there is a plug :P

History class

Is boring.

Learning about the slave trade over and over agian

It reapeats itself so many times

And I'm sick of it.

Should be taking notes

Too bad

I'm sick of slavery.

I think it's nap time.

Our Beautiful Mistakes - Our Innocence Lost

And if I ran away? Would you still be here?
Waiting for me - 'til I found my mind
You pick up the pieces, I pick up a pen
And search for the words to start over again
As blood drains from my face
All hope leaves without a trace
I'm here... Help me...
So come forth of you've ever tried and failed
All stand tall wishing our lives away
Rip curl hearts meet ever breaking waves
We're taking back what we once had and lost
Leave the past back where it belongs
Rip curl hearts were never born to break (Our beautiful mistakes)
A fateful confusion is reigning supreme
It's screaming the realization of what could have been
You pick up the pieces I pick up a pen
And search for the words to start over again
As blood drains from my face
All hope leaves without a trace
I'm here...Help me...
So come forth of you've ever tried and failed
All stand tall wishing our lives away
Rip curl hearts meet ever breaking waves (Our beautiful mistakes)
We're taking back what we once had and lost
Leave the past back where it belongs
Rip curl hearts were never born to break (Our beautiful mistakes)

Finished

I'm done history :)

Take that John!

ha ha.

:)

Thunderbirds Are Go

I <3 Thinderbirds.... oh the cheesy and visible cables on the old puppets...

And the movie was good too :)

Taylor Swift songs

Equal my life...

Listen to them and you'll basically know everything about me :)

This history reading...is so boring....why do I keep putting dots...I don't know...But it is kind of fun...Oh no...i am distracted...work...I should finish it...

Oh and I just realized that one of my first posts was about not seeing someone for like ever, and now that has changed so much...It's crazy how things change. But in a good way :)

PS he needs to call/text me...like soon....

OMG I SHOULD WORK!
yeahh I'll work now..I guess....But it's really boring...

And my love of random blogs has started again lol

yay for blogging??

OMG the stupid msn noise is annoying! GIVE ME A SECOND TO ANSWER!! JESUS!!

heh heh

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Addicted to Metro Station?

Yes, it's true...

They're just so good....

But not so much with the good-looking.

Like at all.

And the guy from Tokio Hotel...

Yeah he scares me because he looks like a girl...always.... Creepy.

I should be doing history....

....Or not.... :P